Ham dono chuup-chaap khade rahe, kuch der tak..
fir mai aage chala.. Ronnie mere pichhe aane laga..
dono mein se kisi ko yeh kehne ki jarurat nahi padi ke -chalo yaha se nikal lete hai ab.
waise bhi, ab bacha hi kya tha uus beer-bar mein..
waha jo muje mila abhi kuchh der pehle, woh ek gehra sadma.. ek zordar dhakka..
ab meri himmat nahi banti thi waha fir lautkar jane ki.
.
Ham dono car mein baithe..
Hadbadate, confused haatho se maine iginition mein chaabi ghumayi.
Mere geele haath kaampte thhe, sardi ki wajah se.. aur uus dhakke ki wajah se, jo Ronnie ne muje abhi abhi diya tha.
Mai abhi tak yeh maan'ne ko taiyaar nahi tha, ke Ronnie ne muje cheat kiya hai.
.
Car start hui..ab toh uski engine ki yeh awaaz bhi bardaasht nahi ho pa rahi thi.
.
"Are you coming home?" -Windscreen par zor se takraate aur nichey ki aur behkar jaate hue barish
ke paani ki aur dekhte hue mai halke se puchha.
.
mere peit mein ajeeb si chakri uuth rahi thi,
mere siney mein ek anjaana sa dard ho uthta tha, jab muje Ronnie ke woh alfaaz yaad aa rahe thhe ke usne kisi aur ke saath kissing aur smooching ki hai.
.
Mere haath paanv kaafi kamzor ho chuke thhe..
magar fir bhi dil mein aisi ichcha ho rahi thi, ke mai ja kar pata lagaau uus shaks, uus bande ke baare mein aur ussey ke muuh par ek zordaar thappad rasid kar du.
.
Ronnie aisa kaise kar sakta hai..? Woh toh iis tarah ka ladka nahi hai. He is supposed to be good and a loyal one.
.
Magar muje koi haqq nahi tha iis tarah se sochne ka, ya iis tarah kehne ka.. kyo ke it was I who cheated first.. so many times..!
.
Mai uski aur dekh bhi nahi pa raha tha.
Ro dene ki zordaar feeling ko apne galey mein atka dene ki wajah se, mai wahaan andar kaafi uncomfortable feel kar raha tha,
.
Ronnie ki aur se mere sawaal ka koi bhi jawaab nahi mila tha, fir bhi maine wipers switch-on kiye aur driving start kar di.
Muje kuch toh karna tha. koi toh aisi activity..jis'se mera dhyan mai kahi aur baant saku.
.
thande, giiley shirt ki fabric mere badan se chipak kar ek chubhan denewaali sensation paida kar rahi thi.
Muje ek garm shower ki jaurat thi,,
shower.. Ronnie ke saath...
.
"Ok, yeah.. " -Ronnie ne ab reply diya.
Ghar pe aane ki apni marzi zaahr kar ke Ronnie seat ke bhitar ghuus kar baith gaya aur khidki ke bahar dekhne laga.
Kuch der tak mai driving karta raha.
Dono chuup-chaap hi rahe.
Samne ke sadak koi dekhta hua, mai pata nahi kya soch raha tha.
tab maine dekha ke Ronnie ne apni dono kalaai ek dusre ko cross karti hui, apni daadhi ke niche, apne sinee se chipka kar rakhi hui thi.
yeh dekhkar mere chehre par, na chahte hue bhi ek smile aa gayi.
Muje agar yeh maluum na hota ke woh sardi ki wajah se waise kar rha hai, toh mai jaruur aise kisi sulky teenager ki tarah behave karne ke liye, usey tokta.
Mai uski thighs par apna haath rakhna chahta tha,
magar maine apne aap ko rok liya, yeh soch kar ke yeh harkat shayad uus par ulta asar kar de.
.
With every mile I drove away, my chest felt heavier and more.
Mera dil fir se ab baitha ja raha tha.
I simply hoped, we can get somewhere, this time..
.
Jaise hi maine car park kari, ke woh sidha hokar baith gaya.
Uski nazar muje paar karti hui hamare ghar ki aur taak rahi thi.
Uski bhanve upar chadh kar uske maathe ki jurriya badha rahi thi.
Uski ungliya apne aap naachne lagi, aur bhaari gehri saanso ki wajah se uska sina zor zor se upar niche hone laga tha.
.
"What's wrong..?" -maine fikramand aawaz mein pucha.
.
"Nothing." I just, don't think I'm ready to stay the night. You ok to take me back later, to my Dad's..?" -Ronnie ne dhimi aawaz aur gili aaankho ke saath kaha.
.
"If I'm not able to change your mind, then yeah, sure I'll take you back." -maine ek weak smile dete hue kaha.
.
Jab usne return-smile di toh aisa laga ke mera dil uchal kar mere galey mein aa gaya.
He had no idea how long I've waited to see him smile again...
.
.
Ghar ke andar ghuste hi ham dono ek duje ki aur taakne lage..
woh maare sardi ke jabardast kaamp raha tha.
.
"You...You wanna get a shower?" -maine uske bhige khubsurat badan par chipki hui uski shirt ki aur dekhte hue kaha.
Meri pant ke andar halchal paida ho rahi thi. Woh kaafi sexy lag raha tha uus waqt.
.
usney mere na zdeek sarakte hue sar hila kar haan kahi.
meri dhadkan ruuk si gayi uus khyaal se, jo shayad ab hone ja rha tha.
Muje apni baanho me bhar lo.. muje kiss karo... muje fir se le lo apne saath..Ronnie
.
.
"I'm sorry, again, about what I did." -kehte hue Ronnie ka nichla honth kaamp utha. Uski awaaz tuut rahi thi, - "I feel so guilty Nikhil."
.
Maine jaldi se use apni aagosh mein le liya.
Uska barfila geela badan mere ang ang mein bijlee paida kar rha tha.
Ronnie ne apna chehra meri gardan mein ghusaya, tab muje laga ke aansuo ki nami, uske chehre ko chipchipa bana gayi thi,
Hamari yeh nazdiki kaafi electrifying thi mere liye.
.
"I love you Ronnie. Please don't beat yourself up about what you did. I forgive you, ok..? I swear.." -maine mushkil se ek saans niche utaarte hue kaha.
.
Forgive him? It's barely even sunk in yet...
.
ek siski lete hue usne apni baanh meri kamar ke aaspaas lapet li.
I gave him a squeeze while a long staggered breath exhaled from my crushed lungs.
We can get through this..We had to get through this...
hamey bahar nikalna hoga iin sabse, aise kaise ji payenge ham-dono..!
.
Ronnie ne apne aap ko mujse alag karte hue apne aap ko duur khinch liya..aur meri aur chamkili aankho ke saath dekhne laga.
"I need us to be ok, Nikhil. I love and hate you at the same time, but I can't lose you. You have no idea how much I'm getting hurt, but I can't bear the thought of being without you."
.
"I'll do whatever I can to make you happy again Ronnie, to get you to trust me again. I swear I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I need you, I love you, and there's no way I can ever lose you." -apne aansuo ko aankh se ubharte hue rokne ke liye muje mere honth zoro se apne daanto taley dabane padey.
.
Suddenly Ronnie kissed me hard.
His warm lips awakened every single nerve in my body.
Uski shirt pakad kar maine usey mere nazdeek khincha.
Meri zubaan uske muuh mein sarak gayi aur wahaan andar ja kar aflatuun harkatein karne lagi,
andar maujuud beer ke halke se swaad ka lutf uthane lagi.
.
Meri gardan ka pichla hissa apne kaamte haatho mein daboch kar, usne apne aap ko mere badan mein ghusa diya.
Meri peeth ab deewar se jakar satt gayi thi.
.
"Oh Ronnie." I gasped, as he unexpectantly rubbed his crotch into mine.
.
"I want you to make love to me.." -He whispered with a husky and seriously sexy tone- "in our bed."
.
..
...
....
.....
....
...
..
.
ham dono ne sex kiya..sex se khich-o-khich bhara pyaar diya, ek duje ko.
mai jaanta tha ke yeh wala session hamare pichhle session ki tarah intense toh nahi tha,
magar uus waqt ke halaat ko madd-e-nazar rakhte hue maine kaafi achcha 'perform' kiya.
Uske badan ki saari gehraai ko apni puuri lambaai se kured kar, maine usey woh diya jiska woh haqdaar tha..
sirf uuski ka haq tha jis par, woh mera prem-ras baha diya uske tan-badan mein.
hamari jismaani nazdikiyo se maine, hamare dilo mein paida hui duurio ko mitane ki puuri koshish kari
uske mann ko maine bhar diya, puri satisfaction se.
aur woh total satisfaction uski aanhko se ab saaf chhalak rahi thi.
.
.
"You have no idea how LOVED you made me feel last night..Nikhil. Thank you." -dusre din subah uuthte hi Ronnie ne meri aankho mein aankhe daalte hue kaha.
Achanak meri aanko mein fir se aansuo ki nami chhane lagi.
"You're my world Ronnie." -maine ek roti hui muskurahat ke saath kaha.
.
Ham-dono ek duje ke fir karib gaye aur hamare honth ek duje se fir bheed gaye.
hamare badan mein fir vaasna ki lehar uuthne lagi.
Dono ke badan ke woh hissey ab sakh aur mazbuut hone lage thhe, jinse hamey ab kaam lena tha.
.
"Take me back. Please." -maine apni jarurat ki urgency ko jataate hue apni woh harqat shur kar di jo hamare pyaar ko aage ka raasta dikhane waali thi.
.
"We need to talk, Nikhil. about changes. Because regardless of what you said, there's always a reason for cheating." -Ronnie ki awaaz ab achanak surprisingly sakht ho chuki thi.
.
Maine ek kamzor haami bhari.
He was right.
Usey jaan'ni thi, meri cheating ki asli wajah..
.
"Ok..." -I whispered.
.
Ham dono ne apne aap ko khiinch kar ek duje se alag kar diya
aur fir sidhey, peeth ke bal leit kar, ceiling ki aur taakne lage.
.
Yes, muje Ronnie ke saath be-rehmi ki hadd tak honest hona padega.
Agar hamare iis rishte ko fuulna-falna hai.. toh ab muje puuri imaandari ke saath us'se baat karni hogi.
.
Dard se vichaleet mera gala, muje bolne ki manjuuri de, us'se pehle maine apni aankhe muund li.
Here it goes... (contd..)
============================
fir mai aage chala.. Ronnie mere pichhe aane laga..
dono mein se kisi ko yeh kehne ki jarurat nahi padi ke -chalo yaha se nikal lete hai ab.
waise bhi, ab bacha hi kya tha uus beer-bar mein..
waha jo muje mila abhi kuchh der pehle, woh ek gehra sadma.. ek zordar dhakka..
ab meri himmat nahi banti thi waha fir lautkar jane ki.
.
Ham dono car mein baithe..
Hadbadate, confused haatho se maine iginition mein chaabi ghumayi.
Mere geele haath kaampte thhe, sardi ki wajah se.. aur uus dhakke ki wajah se, jo Ronnie ne muje abhi abhi diya tha.
Mai abhi tak yeh maan'ne ko taiyaar nahi tha, ke Ronnie ne muje cheat kiya hai.
.
Car start hui..ab toh uski engine ki yeh awaaz bhi bardaasht nahi ho pa rahi thi.
.
"Are you coming home?" -Windscreen par zor se takraate aur nichey ki aur behkar jaate hue barish
ke paani ki aur dekhte hue mai halke se puchha.
.
mere peit mein ajeeb si chakri uuth rahi thi,
mere siney mein ek anjaana sa dard ho uthta tha, jab muje Ronnie ke woh alfaaz yaad aa rahe thhe ke usne kisi aur ke saath kissing aur smooching ki hai.
.
Mere haath paanv kaafi kamzor ho chuke thhe..
magar fir bhi dil mein aisi ichcha ho rahi thi, ke mai ja kar pata lagaau uus shaks, uus bande ke baare mein aur ussey ke muuh par ek zordaar thappad rasid kar du.
.
Ronnie aisa kaise kar sakta hai..? Woh toh iis tarah ka ladka nahi hai. He is supposed to be good and a loyal one.
.
Magar muje koi haqq nahi tha iis tarah se sochne ka, ya iis tarah kehne ka.. kyo ke it was I who cheated first.. so many times..!
.
Mai uski aur dekh bhi nahi pa raha tha.
Ro dene ki zordaar feeling ko apne galey mein atka dene ki wajah se, mai wahaan andar kaafi uncomfortable feel kar raha tha,
.
Ronnie ki aur se mere sawaal ka koi bhi jawaab nahi mila tha, fir bhi maine wipers switch-on kiye aur driving start kar di.
Muje kuch toh karna tha. koi toh aisi activity..jis'se mera dhyan mai kahi aur baant saku.
.
thande, giiley shirt ki fabric mere badan se chipak kar ek chubhan denewaali sensation paida kar rahi thi.
Muje ek garm shower ki jaurat thi,,
shower.. Ronnie ke saath...
.
"Ok, yeah.. " -Ronnie ne ab reply diya.
Ghar pe aane ki apni marzi zaahr kar ke Ronnie seat ke bhitar ghuus kar baith gaya aur khidki ke bahar dekhne laga.
Kuch der tak mai driving karta raha.
Dono chuup-chaap hi rahe.
Samne ke sadak koi dekhta hua, mai pata nahi kya soch raha tha.
tab maine dekha ke Ronnie ne apni dono kalaai ek dusre ko cross karti hui, apni daadhi ke niche, apne sinee se chipka kar rakhi hui thi.
yeh dekhkar mere chehre par, na chahte hue bhi ek smile aa gayi.
Muje agar yeh maluum na hota ke woh sardi ki wajah se waise kar rha hai, toh mai jaruur aise kisi sulky teenager ki tarah behave karne ke liye, usey tokta.
Mai uski thighs par apna haath rakhna chahta tha,
magar maine apne aap ko rok liya, yeh soch kar ke yeh harkat shayad uus par ulta asar kar de.
.
With every mile I drove away, my chest felt heavier and more.
Mera dil fir se ab baitha ja raha tha.
I simply hoped, we can get somewhere, this time..
.
Jaise hi maine car park kari, ke woh sidha hokar baith gaya.
Uski nazar muje paar karti hui hamare ghar ki aur taak rahi thi.
Uski bhanve upar chadh kar uske maathe ki jurriya badha rahi thi.
Uski ungliya apne aap naachne lagi, aur bhaari gehri saanso ki wajah se uska sina zor zor se upar niche hone laga tha.
.
"What's wrong..?" -maine fikramand aawaz mein pucha.
.
"Nothing." I just, don't think I'm ready to stay the night. You ok to take me back later, to my Dad's..?" -Ronnie ne dhimi aawaz aur gili aaankho ke saath kaha.
.
"If I'm not able to change your mind, then yeah, sure I'll take you back." -maine ek weak smile dete hue kaha.
.
Jab usne return-smile di toh aisa laga ke mera dil uchal kar mere galey mein aa gaya.
He had no idea how long I've waited to see him smile again...
.
.
Ghar ke andar ghuste hi ham dono ek duje ki aur taakne lage..
woh maare sardi ke jabardast kaamp raha tha.
.
"You...You wanna get a shower?" -maine uske bhige khubsurat badan par chipki hui uski shirt ki aur dekhte hue kaha.
Meri pant ke andar halchal paida ho rahi thi. Woh kaafi sexy lag raha tha uus waqt.
.
usney mere na zdeek sarakte hue sar hila kar haan kahi.
meri dhadkan ruuk si gayi uus khyaal se, jo shayad ab hone ja rha tha.
Muje apni baanho me bhar lo.. muje kiss karo... muje fir se le lo apne saath..Ronnie
.
.
"I'm sorry, again, about what I did." -kehte hue Ronnie ka nichla honth kaamp utha. Uski awaaz tuut rahi thi, - "I feel so guilty Nikhil."
.
Maine jaldi se use apni aagosh mein le liya.
Uska barfila geela badan mere ang ang mein bijlee paida kar rha tha.
Ronnie ne apna chehra meri gardan mein ghusaya, tab muje laga ke aansuo ki nami, uske chehre ko chipchipa bana gayi thi,
Hamari yeh nazdiki kaafi electrifying thi mere liye.
.
"I love you Ronnie. Please don't beat yourself up about what you did. I forgive you, ok..? I swear.." -maine mushkil se ek saans niche utaarte hue kaha.
.
Forgive him? It's barely even sunk in yet...
.
ek siski lete hue usne apni baanh meri kamar ke aaspaas lapet li.
I gave him a squeeze while a long staggered breath exhaled from my crushed lungs.
We can get through this..We had to get through this...
hamey bahar nikalna hoga iin sabse, aise kaise ji payenge ham-dono..!
.
Ronnie ne apne aap ko mujse alag karte hue apne aap ko duur khinch liya..aur meri aur chamkili aankho ke saath dekhne laga.
"I need us to be ok, Nikhil. I love and hate you at the same time, but I can't lose you. You have no idea how much I'm getting hurt, but I can't bear the thought of being without you."
.
"I'll do whatever I can to make you happy again Ronnie, to get you to trust me again. I swear I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I need you, I love you, and there's no way I can ever lose you." -apne aansuo ko aankh se ubharte hue rokne ke liye muje mere honth zoro se apne daanto taley dabane padey.
.
Suddenly Ronnie kissed me hard.
His warm lips awakened every single nerve in my body.
Uski shirt pakad kar maine usey mere nazdeek khincha.
Meri zubaan uske muuh mein sarak gayi aur wahaan andar ja kar aflatuun harkatein karne lagi,
andar maujuud beer ke halke se swaad ka lutf uthane lagi.
.
Meri gardan ka pichla hissa apne kaamte haatho mein daboch kar, usne apne aap ko mere badan mein ghusa diya.
Meri peeth ab deewar se jakar satt gayi thi.
.
"Oh Ronnie." I gasped, as he unexpectantly rubbed his crotch into mine.
.
"I want you to make love to me.." -He whispered with a husky and seriously sexy tone- "in our bed."
.
..
...
....
.....
....
...
..
.
ham dono ne sex kiya..sex se khich-o-khich bhara pyaar diya, ek duje ko.
mai jaanta tha ke yeh wala session hamare pichhle session ki tarah intense toh nahi tha,
magar uus waqt ke halaat ko madd-e-nazar rakhte hue maine kaafi achcha 'perform' kiya.
Uske badan ki saari gehraai ko apni puuri lambaai se kured kar, maine usey woh diya jiska woh haqdaar tha..
sirf uuski ka haq tha jis par, woh mera prem-ras baha diya uske tan-badan mein.
hamari jismaani nazdikiyo se maine, hamare dilo mein paida hui duurio ko mitane ki puuri koshish kari
uske mann ko maine bhar diya, puri satisfaction se.
aur woh total satisfaction uski aanhko se ab saaf chhalak rahi thi.
.
.
"You have no idea how LOVED you made me feel last night..Nikhil. Thank you." -dusre din subah uuthte hi Ronnie ne meri aankho mein aankhe daalte hue kaha.
Achanak meri aanko mein fir se aansuo ki nami chhane lagi.
"You're my world Ronnie." -maine ek roti hui muskurahat ke saath kaha.
.
Ham-dono ek duje ke fir karib gaye aur hamare honth ek duje se fir bheed gaye.
hamare badan mein fir vaasna ki lehar uuthne lagi.
Dono ke badan ke woh hissey ab sakh aur mazbuut hone lage thhe, jinse hamey ab kaam lena tha.
.
"Take me back. Please." -maine apni jarurat ki urgency ko jataate hue apni woh harqat shur kar di jo hamare pyaar ko aage ka raasta dikhane waali thi.
.
"We need to talk, Nikhil. about changes. Because regardless of what you said, there's always a reason for cheating." -Ronnie ki awaaz ab achanak surprisingly sakht ho chuki thi.
.
Maine ek kamzor haami bhari.
He was right.
Usey jaan'ni thi, meri cheating ki asli wajah..
.
"Ok..." -I whispered.
.
Ham dono ne apne aap ko khiinch kar ek duje se alag kar diya
aur fir sidhey, peeth ke bal leit kar, ceiling ki aur taakne lage.
.
Yes, muje Ronnie ke saath be-rehmi ki hadd tak honest hona padega.
Agar hamare iis rishte ko fuulna-falna hai.. toh ab muje puuri imaandari ke saath us'se baat karni hogi.
.
Dard se vichaleet mera gala, muje bolne ki manjuuri de, us'se pehle maine apni aankhe muund li.
Here it goes... (contd..)
============================
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