(Guys, iis story ko jo unexpected positive response mil raha hai, for that I thank you all for all your likes and comments and above all, those messages that fill up my inbox.
Honestly speaking, maine kabhi itna expect nahi kiya tha, itni saari sex-stories likhne ke baad maine ek clean story likhne ki koshish kari. magar muje andar hi andar ek darr tha ke 2 ya 3 parts ke baad, sufficient response nahi milne par mai iise within 5 parts mein hi complete kar dunga. Aur isiliye, maine koi pre-planning ya preparation nahi ki thi. bas ek patli si story-line par hi apna kaam start kar diya.
In the cases of my other stories I prepare a rough draft of the whole story before I upload the 1st part of it.
Magar ab ki baar aisa nahi hua hai, kyo ke I didn't have high hopes for such type of sentimental story.
Toh problem ye ho rahi hai, ke readers are getting desperate for the further part just on the very next day. Jab ke muje apni full-time job se utna time nahi mil pa raha ke mai iis par jyada waqt de saku.
Guys, if it was a sex-story tab toh koi problem nahi hoti,
mere khayalo ke flow ko apni fingers ke thru continuously ek note-pad par ikattha kar lena aasan kaam hota hai, kyoi ke meri typing ki achchi-bhali speed hai.
but this being a sentimental story, I have to create a feeling in myself aur fir jo khayal mere andar ujaagar hote hai, usey effective sentence mein pesh karne ke liye appropriate words search karne padte hai..
phew..!
thank god ke more than half of the story toh english mein hi ja rahi hai,
or else, hindi mein kuch aur hi jyada waqt lag jata.
I don't know if I am able to make you understand my problem or not..
but in short mai itna hi kehna chahta hu frndz, ke further part upload karne mein jo deri ho rahi hai, woh meri genuine problem hai,
toh please bear with me.
But still.. I promise to be as prompt as possible in future parts.
Regards to all..)
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Ek hi sentence mein Ronnie ne 2 baat aisi kahi, jo muje dhakka de gayi.
Pehli yeh ke woh ab ghar ja rha hai,
aur dusri yeh, ke mai usey hamare bedroom se usey kuch kapde la kar du.
.
Mai usey kisi bhi baat par blame nahi kar sakta tha.
Mai samaj sakta tha ke Aasif ko mere saath hamare bedroom mein dekhne ke baad, woh uus bedroom mein jaane ko taiyaar nahi tha,
usey meri dhokhedaazi ki boo aati hogi pure bedroom mein..
Khudgarzi ke saath maine usey sofa par soney ke liye raazi karna chaha, magar usey akela rehna tha aur kuch space chahiye thi, hamari relationship ka analysis karne ko.
.
Muje chhor kar jaane ki uski baat mere dil mein ek heavy feeling create karne lagi thi. Kya agar woh waapas nahi aaya toh..? usey milne ki fir se muje permission nahi dega toh..?
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Aakhir helplessly maine uski baat maan li.
Woh bathroom mein gaya kuch toiletries laane ko aur main bedroom me gaya.
Ronnie ki hamare bedroom mein aa pane ki inability ke liye guilty feel karte hue, maine ek overnight-bag nikali.
Usmein ek jeans aur do-ek shirts bhare. socks aur boxer bhi daal diye.
Maine is'se jyada kuch nahi bhara, kyo ke mai nahi chahta tha ke woh jyada din mujse duur rahe.
Agar muje milne ki usey koi jaldi na bhi ho, toh bhi apna saaman lene ke liye usey aana padey yehi maqsad tha mera, iiske pichhe.
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"When will I see you again?" -helplessly mai itna hi keh paaya kyo ke meri tuut'ti hui himmat ke saath meri aawaaz bhi tuutne lagi thi
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"I don't know." -meri taraf dekhe bina, woh bhi utne hi aahista bola,
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Mere haath kaampne lage thhe, aur mere siney mein bhi ajeeb si pain shuru ho gayi thi.
Uski taraf jhuuk kar maine apne haath uski taraf badhaaye aur uske gaalo par rakhe, jo ke kaafi garm magar kuchh chipchipe ho gaye thhe, sukhe hue aansuo ki wajah se
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Ronnie ne mere haatho ko hataya nahi.
Balke usne apni aankhe muund li.
Apne chehre ko mere haatho ki aur jhuuka diya.
Shayad meri touch se behtar feel kar raha tha, woh.
.
usey touch karne diya is'se ek ehsaanmandi ki, ek gratefullness ki kuch feelings aa gayi mere mann mein.
Woh kuch relax feel karne laga tha, jiski wajah se uski khubsurati bhi badhti chali.
Mai shayad apna naseeb aazma raha tha, magar jab maine apne honth uske honth tak le gaya toh usne koi resist nahi kiya.
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Uske aise reaction se mai kuch tensd feel karne laga, yehi dua karta raha kahi woh apne aap ko pichhe na hata de.
and yes, usne nahi hataya apne aap ko pichhe..balke usne actually muje kiss-back bhi kiya.
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The sensation that swept over me, was amazing; it was a mixture of relief, hope and comfort.
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We began to slowly kiss each other, lovingly and passionately.
It was clear that he had missed this, as much as I had.
We continued that way for a couple of minutes at least,
and every second of it was soothing the raging emotional pain and was also fuelling my hope.
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magar yeh jyada der nahi chala.
All of a sudden usne ek kadam pichhe hatt kar, apne aap ko mujse alag kar diya.
"Ronnie?" -I gasped with disbelief.
"I can't do this." -He sobbed, before opening the door and darting through it.
"Ronnie." -I pleaded- "Come back please."
magar kuch nahi asar hua uus par. Apni car mein baith kar woh chala gaya.
meri jitni bhi pain, kuchH der ke liye jo gayab ho chuuki thi, woh fir laut aayi.
Mai andar aaya aur sidha apne bed par ja gira.
I was feeling fucking DEFEATED..
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Dusre din office jaane ka koi irada nahi tha mera.
Magar mai yeh bhi jaanta tha ke office mein ja kar, kuch kaam karne se hi mai apni spirits ko lift kar paunga.
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Jaise hi mai office ki meri cabin mein settle hua, ke kaafi cheerful mood lekar Soloman andar aaya.
"Morning Nikhil..!" -woh chehak utha- "You alright? You look knackered..!"
"yeah fine, " -maine thodi berukhi ke saath jawaab diya.
Aaj muje koi parwah nahi ho rahi thi kisi ko ek smile tak dene ki, even Soloman ko bhi nahi.
Aaj fir yeh ek thakane wala din hoga, waise muje lag rha tha.
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"Late night with the boyfriend?" -usne meri taraf wink karte hue kaha.
"Kaash, aisa hota.." -maine socha.
In the whole office, sirf Soloman hi tha, jo mere gay honey ki baat se waakif tha.
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Yey kuchh 7-8 mahine pahle ki baat hai.
Tab mai social gay-site par 'stud4u' ke screen-name ke saath jor-shor se dating karta tha.
magar PlanetRomeo ke ghise-pitey bando se chhutkara paane ke liye, maine adam4adam mein apna pfofile bana liya tha, bcoz tab yeh site jyada popular nahi thi.
toh I felt ke jo bhi dating hogi, uus mein jaane-pehchane logo ki risk nahi hogi.
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mai aisa chahta tha, kyo ke mai Ronnie ke knowledge ke baahar dating karta tha.
aur jitna chhupa reh saku yeh, mere liye aur Ronnie ke saath meri relationship ke liye, behtar hoga.
aur fir iis site par sab chehre naye naye honge yeh extra benefit bhi tha.
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ek subah maine ek 23saal ke ladke ke saath pic-swap ki,
apni pic bhejne ke baad uski pic jab dekhi, toh woh 35 se kam nahi lag rha tha.
Woh juuth bol raha tha, ya uska chehra hi aisa tha, I didn't know; neither I cared about it,.
kyo ke muje koi interest nahi tha uus mein.
toh uske ek bhi message ko reply kiye bina hi, mein thoda sa mayuus ho kar dusre kaamo mein busy ho gaya.
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after half an hour maine fir se log-on kiya, toh tabhi meri screen par ek msg blink hone laga.
khol kar padha toh mai chaunk gaya.
CuteLover4u naamke kisi bande ne likha tha: "Hey handsome, your pic is shown publicly, hope you know about it."
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chaunk kar maine check kiya.
yes, one of my clear face-pic was displayed in my profile.
uus 35saal wale ladke ko pic bhejne ke baad, by some mistake meri pic public-display par aa jaaye waisi setting-change ho gayi thi, without my knowledge.
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Maine fauran woh setting ki mistake ko rectify kar li.
Thank god within 30mins I was able to clear off this blunder -maine socha- warna pata nahi kaun kaun dekh leta iisey, by any chance Ronnie ka friend dekh leta toh..?
phew..!.
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maine uus CuteLover4u ko thanx ka msg bhej diya..
I was so grateful to him that I can't describe.
Aise caring aur loving bando ki wajah se hi gay-world kaayam hai, aisi feelings mere dil mein paida hui.
par tabhi muje khayal aaya ke aise toh kai ek bold bande hai, jo deliberately apni pic apni profile mein display karte hai,
toh kya yeh CuteLover4u, sab ko aisa msg bhejta hoga...?
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maine fauran usey msg kiya- "thanx once again buddy, but do you msg such, to all the guys who shows their pic publicly..?"
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immediatly uska reply aaya- "Not to all, Handsome, only to him who i know, is not that bold or out to show his face to all the members of this site."
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"ohh,, but how did you know I'm a discreet guy..? do you know me personally..? have we met b4..?" -maine apni curiosity jataayi.
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"hahaha.. relax Nikhil Mahajan, don't get so tensed.. you are safe in my hand" -uska msg aaya.
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fuck..
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yeh banda toh muje pehchaan gaya hai.
yeh mera puura naam bhi jaanta hai, matlab he is very close to me.
Koi friend ya friend's friend hota, toh sirf mera first naam jaanta, mera last name kabhi
nahi.
Who can he be..?
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airconditioned cabin mein bhi muje pasine chhutne lage.
Ronnie ka bhai hua toh..?
woh to straight hai.. but still yaar u can't be sure about anything..
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apni chat aage jaari rakhu us'se pehle hi woh log-off kar chuka tha.
whole of my day, yehi tension mein guzara ke kaun ho sakta hai woh..
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dusre din subah mai apni cabin mein guum-suum baitha tha, uus site par log-on karne ka dil nahi ho raha tha,
ek anjaana darr, ek replusion paida ho rahi thi,
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Tabhi, Soloman knock kar ke meri cabin mein aaya.
"Hello, Nikhil Mahajan, how's the day..? hope u are fine..?"
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Mai chaunk gaya..
Soloman muje hamesha Nikhil keh kar hi bulata tha.
Woh mera full name jaanta tha, office mein har koi ek dusre ka full-name jaante hai,
magar kabhi woh full name lekar baat nahi karta tha,
toh fir aaj kyo..?
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muje pichhle din ki yaad aa gayi..
kya woh Soloman hi tha jo CuteLover4u ke screen-name ke saath mujse chat kar rha tha.?
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uske sawaal ka adha-adhura jawaab de kar, usey jyada entertain kiye bina hi, apne kaam mein laga rahne ka show-off karta raha,
toh woh chala gaya..
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maine fir uus site par log-on kiya.
woh ladka bhi on-line tha.
mai wait karta raha, ke uska koi msg aaye..
magar woh suspence creat karte hue, waise hi idle raha.
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aakhir maine initiate kiya.
"hey, you didn't tell me how u know me.."
"is it necessary to tell you about me..? I dont think so..!"
"yeah, it is necessary. Look mate, I'm sure you know me very closely. As a well-wisher, u drew my attention to my pic, and for this i'm thankful to you. But now u are increasing my tension too. All the guys I'm facing since yesterday, makes me think whether he is the guy who knows that I'm a gay. Just break the ice buddy. You dont know I am so tired since yesterday simply guessing who you can be.."
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"hahaha.. relax Nikhil Mahajan, if ever I wanted you to stay tensed, I wouldn't have given you hint few minutes ago."
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Ohhh.. toh yeh soloman hi tha..
I got damn sure about it now..
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Mai log-off kar diya.
This was horrible. Soloman abhi last 6months se hi iis comapny mein join kiya tha
and I was senior next to him.
Woh ek israeli-jew ladka tha, aisi caste, jisey mai bilkul trust na karu.
aur ab ek israeli meri life ka wo raaz jaanta tha, which I couldn't afford anyone to know about, specially in the company where I was building up my career extensively, day by day.
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Toh despite being senior to him, mai kabhi us'se aankh mila kar baat nahi kar sakunga..leave aside giving orders to him.
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muje ab iis ladke se gussa aa rha tha.
usne muje warn kar ke meri pic ko public hone se bacha liya tha, yeh baat ab mere liye jyada important nahi thi.
Uus ka woh ehsaan ab apna weightage kho chuka tha.
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of course uska koi fault nahi tha, magar fir bhi muje uuspar gussa aa rha tha, ke woh mera yeh raaz kyo jaan gaya..
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uus din aur na hi dusre din bhi, mai aur Soloman jab bhi miley, uus ne iis baat ka koi zikr nahi kiya
and neither did I.
But yeah, hamdono ne uus site par 3-4 baar chat kiya, jis'se muje yeh ladka kaafi comforting laga.
aur uski aur se koi bhi darr jaisa nahi lagne par, mai aanewale dino mein us'se kaafi relaxed feel karne laga,
aur office mein bhi ham dono ka behaviour kaafi normal hone laga.
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But still yet, apni baato mein hamdono, ek dusre ke gay hone ki baat ka kabhi bhi koi reference ya hint nahi dete thhe.
Even thou ke uus site par woh muje 'handsome' keh kar hi bulata tha, magar kabhi usne muje aisa signal nahi diya ke woh mujme interested hai.
whatever..
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magar aaj..
"Late night with the boyfriend..?" -Soloman ne meri taraf wink karte hue kaha. uske chehre par koi anjaani si khushi chhalak rahi thi.
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"hmmm.." -mai sirf haami bhar ke ruuk gaya, aur fir uus topic ko change karne ke irade se puchha- "So..? why are you so happy with yourself this morning..?"
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"I hooked up with a fittest guy, last night..!" -woh khilkhilate hue bola.
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Woh aaj kuchh jyada hi khush tha, kisi se milne par.
Itna Khush ke hamare uus unspoken-rule ko bhula kar woh openly gay baatien karne laga tha.
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muje bhi aaj jarurat thi, kisi aise dil ki, jis ke aage mai kuch halka ho saku.
Toh Soloman ki baato se muje koi uncomfort feel nahi hua.
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"He was really nice. -usne jaari rakkha- I think he just wanted a 'one-night' thing though. And not that I mind too much about it."
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"Didn't swap numbers then?"-I asked.
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"Nah...So what's up with you then? Since yesterday you've not seemed yourself..?" -jo baat usey pinch kar rahi thi woh usne puchh hi daali.
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6mahine pahle ke hamare chat-session ke through Soloman itna toh jaanta tha ke mai kisi ke saath long-term steady ja raha hu, magar uska naam etc ki jyada personal baate maine us'se share nahi kari thi.
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kitna bhi maine chaha ke yeh baat mere aur Ronnie ke beech rahe..magar fir bhi meri aankhe bhar aayi.
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"Just...not been sleeping well." -maine tar'raati hui aawaz mein kaha magar fir apne aap ko samhalte hue, apne laptop par kaam mein busy hone ka dhong karta raha.
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"You sure...?" -He asked quietly.
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"Yeah...but to be honest, it's not something I really wanna talk about . Thanks though." -maine softly and respectfully usey kaha.
It was lovely of Soloman to be showing such concern, but I actualy, mai mood mein nahi tha.
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"Well you know where I am, if ever you need me." -cabin se bahar nikalte hue woh bola.
aur mai akela reh gaya fir se, apni cabin mein.. (Contd..)
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Honestly speaking, maine kabhi itna expect nahi kiya tha, itni saari sex-stories likhne ke baad maine ek clean story likhne ki koshish kari. magar muje andar hi andar ek darr tha ke 2 ya 3 parts ke baad, sufficient response nahi milne par mai iise within 5 parts mein hi complete kar dunga. Aur isiliye, maine koi pre-planning ya preparation nahi ki thi. bas ek patli si story-line par hi apna kaam start kar diya.
In the cases of my other stories I prepare a rough draft of the whole story before I upload the 1st part of it.
Magar ab ki baar aisa nahi hua hai, kyo ke I didn't have high hopes for such type of sentimental story.
Toh problem ye ho rahi hai, ke readers are getting desperate for the further part just on the very next day. Jab ke muje apni full-time job se utna time nahi mil pa raha ke mai iis par jyada waqt de saku.
Guys, if it was a sex-story tab toh koi problem nahi hoti,
mere khayalo ke flow ko apni fingers ke thru continuously ek note-pad par ikattha kar lena aasan kaam hota hai, kyoi ke meri typing ki achchi-bhali speed hai.
but this being a sentimental story, I have to create a feeling in myself aur fir jo khayal mere andar ujaagar hote hai, usey effective sentence mein pesh karne ke liye appropriate words search karne padte hai..
phew..!
thank god ke more than half of the story toh english mein hi ja rahi hai,
or else, hindi mein kuch aur hi jyada waqt lag jata.
I don't know if I am able to make you understand my problem or not..
but in short mai itna hi kehna chahta hu frndz, ke further part upload karne mein jo deri ho rahi hai, woh meri genuine problem hai,
toh please bear with me.
But still.. I promise to be as prompt as possible in future parts.
Regards to all..)
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Ek hi sentence mein Ronnie ne 2 baat aisi kahi, jo muje dhakka de gayi.
Pehli yeh ke woh ab ghar ja rha hai,
aur dusri yeh, ke mai usey hamare bedroom se usey kuch kapde la kar du.
.
Mai usey kisi bhi baat par blame nahi kar sakta tha.
Mai samaj sakta tha ke Aasif ko mere saath hamare bedroom mein dekhne ke baad, woh uus bedroom mein jaane ko taiyaar nahi tha,
usey meri dhokhedaazi ki boo aati hogi pure bedroom mein..
Khudgarzi ke saath maine usey sofa par soney ke liye raazi karna chaha, magar usey akela rehna tha aur kuch space chahiye thi, hamari relationship ka analysis karne ko.
.
Muje chhor kar jaane ki uski baat mere dil mein ek heavy feeling create karne lagi thi. Kya agar woh waapas nahi aaya toh..? usey milne ki fir se muje permission nahi dega toh..?
.
Aakhir helplessly maine uski baat maan li.
Woh bathroom mein gaya kuch toiletries laane ko aur main bedroom me gaya.
Ronnie ki hamare bedroom mein aa pane ki inability ke liye guilty feel karte hue, maine ek overnight-bag nikali.
Usmein ek jeans aur do-ek shirts bhare. socks aur boxer bhi daal diye.
Maine is'se jyada kuch nahi bhara, kyo ke mai nahi chahta tha ke woh jyada din mujse duur rahe.
Agar muje milne ki usey koi jaldi na bhi ho, toh bhi apna saaman lene ke liye usey aana padey yehi maqsad tha mera, iiske pichhe.
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"When will I see you again?" -helplessly mai itna hi keh paaya kyo ke meri tuut'ti hui himmat ke saath meri aawaaz bhi tuutne lagi thi
.
"I don't know." -meri taraf dekhe bina, woh bhi utne hi aahista bola,
.
Mere haath kaampne lage thhe, aur mere siney mein bhi ajeeb si pain shuru ho gayi thi.
Uski taraf jhuuk kar maine apne haath uski taraf badhaaye aur uske gaalo par rakhe, jo ke kaafi garm magar kuchh chipchipe ho gaye thhe, sukhe hue aansuo ki wajah se
.
Ronnie ne mere haatho ko hataya nahi.
Balke usne apni aankhe muund li.
Apne chehre ko mere haatho ki aur jhuuka diya.
Shayad meri touch se behtar feel kar raha tha, woh.
.
usey touch karne diya is'se ek ehsaanmandi ki, ek gratefullness ki kuch feelings aa gayi mere mann mein.
Woh kuch relax feel karne laga tha, jiski wajah se uski khubsurati bhi badhti chali.
Mai shayad apna naseeb aazma raha tha, magar jab maine apne honth uske honth tak le gaya toh usne koi resist nahi kiya.
.
Uske aise reaction se mai kuch tensd feel karne laga, yehi dua karta raha kahi woh apne aap ko pichhe na hata de.
and yes, usne nahi hataya apne aap ko pichhe..balke usne actually muje kiss-back bhi kiya.
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The sensation that swept over me, was amazing; it was a mixture of relief, hope and comfort.
.
We began to slowly kiss each other, lovingly and passionately.
It was clear that he had missed this, as much as I had.
We continued that way for a couple of minutes at least,
and every second of it was soothing the raging emotional pain and was also fuelling my hope.
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magar yeh jyada der nahi chala.
All of a sudden usne ek kadam pichhe hatt kar, apne aap ko mujse alag kar diya.
"Ronnie?" -I gasped with disbelief.
"I can't do this." -He sobbed, before opening the door and darting through it.
"Ronnie." -I pleaded- "Come back please."
magar kuch nahi asar hua uus par. Apni car mein baith kar woh chala gaya.
meri jitni bhi pain, kuchH der ke liye jo gayab ho chuuki thi, woh fir laut aayi.
Mai andar aaya aur sidha apne bed par ja gira.
I was feeling fucking DEFEATED..
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Dusre din office jaane ka koi irada nahi tha mera.
Magar mai yeh bhi jaanta tha ke office mein ja kar, kuch kaam karne se hi mai apni spirits ko lift kar paunga.
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Jaise hi mai office ki meri cabin mein settle hua, ke kaafi cheerful mood lekar Soloman andar aaya.
"Morning Nikhil..!" -woh chehak utha- "You alright? You look knackered..!"
"yeah fine, " -maine thodi berukhi ke saath jawaab diya.
Aaj muje koi parwah nahi ho rahi thi kisi ko ek smile tak dene ki, even Soloman ko bhi nahi.
Aaj fir yeh ek thakane wala din hoga, waise muje lag rha tha.
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"Late night with the boyfriend?" -usne meri taraf wink karte hue kaha.
"Kaash, aisa hota.." -maine socha.
In the whole office, sirf Soloman hi tha, jo mere gay honey ki baat se waakif tha.
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Yey kuchh 7-8 mahine pahle ki baat hai.
Tab mai social gay-site par 'stud4u' ke screen-name ke saath jor-shor se dating karta tha.
magar PlanetRomeo ke ghise-pitey bando se chhutkara paane ke liye, maine adam4adam mein apna pfofile bana liya tha, bcoz tab yeh site jyada popular nahi thi.
toh I felt ke jo bhi dating hogi, uus mein jaane-pehchane logo ki risk nahi hogi.
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mai aisa chahta tha, kyo ke mai Ronnie ke knowledge ke baahar dating karta tha.
aur jitna chhupa reh saku yeh, mere liye aur Ronnie ke saath meri relationship ke liye, behtar hoga.
aur fir iis site par sab chehre naye naye honge yeh extra benefit bhi tha.
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ek subah maine ek 23saal ke ladke ke saath pic-swap ki,
apni pic bhejne ke baad uski pic jab dekhi, toh woh 35 se kam nahi lag rha tha.
Woh juuth bol raha tha, ya uska chehra hi aisa tha, I didn't know; neither I cared about it,.
kyo ke muje koi interest nahi tha uus mein.
toh uske ek bhi message ko reply kiye bina hi, mein thoda sa mayuus ho kar dusre kaamo mein busy ho gaya.
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after half an hour maine fir se log-on kiya, toh tabhi meri screen par ek msg blink hone laga.
khol kar padha toh mai chaunk gaya.
CuteLover4u naamke kisi bande ne likha tha: "Hey handsome, your pic is shown publicly, hope you know about it."
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chaunk kar maine check kiya.
yes, one of my clear face-pic was displayed in my profile.
uus 35saal wale ladke ko pic bhejne ke baad, by some mistake meri pic public-display par aa jaaye waisi setting-change ho gayi thi, without my knowledge.
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Maine fauran woh setting ki mistake ko rectify kar li.
Thank god within 30mins I was able to clear off this blunder -maine socha- warna pata nahi kaun kaun dekh leta iisey, by any chance Ronnie ka friend dekh leta toh..?
phew..!.
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maine uus CuteLover4u ko thanx ka msg bhej diya..
I was so grateful to him that I can't describe.
Aise caring aur loving bando ki wajah se hi gay-world kaayam hai, aisi feelings mere dil mein paida hui.
par tabhi muje khayal aaya ke aise toh kai ek bold bande hai, jo deliberately apni pic apni profile mein display karte hai,
toh kya yeh CuteLover4u, sab ko aisa msg bhejta hoga...?
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maine fauran usey msg kiya- "thanx once again buddy, but do you msg such, to all the guys who shows their pic publicly..?"
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immediatly uska reply aaya- "Not to all, Handsome, only to him who i know, is not that bold or out to show his face to all the members of this site."
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"ohh,, but how did you know I'm a discreet guy..? do you know me personally..? have we met b4..?" -maine apni curiosity jataayi.
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"hahaha.. relax Nikhil Mahajan, don't get so tensed.. you are safe in my hand" -uska msg aaya.
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fuck..
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yeh banda toh muje pehchaan gaya hai.
yeh mera puura naam bhi jaanta hai, matlab he is very close to me.
Koi friend ya friend's friend hota, toh sirf mera first naam jaanta, mera last name kabhi
nahi.
Who can he be..?
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airconditioned cabin mein bhi muje pasine chhutne lage.
Ronnie ka bhai hua toh..?
woh to straight hai.. but still yaar u can't be sure about anything..
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apni chat aage jaari rakhu us'se pehle hi woh log-off kar chuka tha.
whole of my day, yehi tension mein guzara ke kaun ho sakta hai woh..
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dusre din subah mai apni cabin mein guum-suum baitha tha, uus site par log-on karne ka dil nahi ho raha tha,
ek anjaana darr, ek replusion paida ho rahi thi,
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Tabhi, Soloman knock kar ke meri cabin mein aaya.
"Hello, Nikhil Mahajan, how's the day..? hope u are fine..?"
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Mai chaunk gaya..
Soloman muje hamesha Nikhil keh kar hi bulata tha.
Woh mera full name jaanta tha, office mein har koi ek dusre ka full-name jaante hai,
magar kabhi woh full name lekar baat nahi karta tha,
toh fir aaj kyo..?
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muje pichhle din ki yaad aa gayi..
kya woh Soloman hi tha jo CuteLover4u ke screen-name ke saath mujse chat kar rha tha.?
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uske sawaal ka adha-adhura jawaab de kar, usey jyada entertain kiye bina hi, apne kaam mein laga rahne ka show-off karta raha,
toh woh chala gaya..
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maine fir uus site par log-on kiya.
woh ladka bhi on-line tha.
mai wait karta raha, ke uska koi msg aaye..
magar woh suspence creat karte hue, waise hi idle raha.
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aakhir maine initiate kiya.
"hey, you didn't tell me how u know me.."
"is it necessary to tell you about me..? I dont think so..!"
"yeah, it is necessary. Look mate, I'm sure you know me very closely. As a well-wisher, u drew my attention to my pic, and for this i'm thankful to you. But now u are increasing my tension too. All the guys I'm facing since yesterday, makes me think whether he is the guy who knows that I'm a gay. Just break the ice buddy. You dont know I am so tired since yesterday simply guessing who you can be.."
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"hahaha.. relax Nikhil Mahajan, if ever I wanted you to stay tensed, I wouldn't have given you hint few minutes ago."
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Ohhh.. toh yeh soloman hi tha..
I got damn sure about it now..
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Mai log-off kar diya.
This was horrible. Soloman abhi last 6months se hi iis comapny mein join kiya tha
and I was senior next to him.
Woh ek israeli-jew ladka tha, aisi caste, jisey mai bilkul trust na karu.
aur ab ek israeli meri life ka wo raaz jaanta tha, which I couldn't afford anyone to know about, specially in the company where I was building up my career extensively, day by day.
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Toh despite being senior to him, mai kabhi us'se aankh mila kar baat nahi kar sakunga..leave aside giving orders to him.
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muje ab iis ladke se gussa aa rha tha.
usne muje warn kar ke meri pic ko public hone se bacha liya tha, yeh baat ab mere liye jyada important nahi thi.
Uus ka woh ehsaan ab apna weightage kho chuka tha.
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of course uska koi fault nahi tha, magar fir bhi muje uuspar gussa aa rha tha, ke woh mera yeh raaz kyo jaan gaya..
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uus din aur na hi dusre din bhi, mai aur Soloman jab bhi miley, uus ne iis baat ka koi zikr nahi kiya
and neither did I.
But yeah, hamdono ne uus site par 3-4 baar chat kiya, jis'se muje yeh ladka kaafi comforting laga.
aur uski aur se koi bhi darr jaisa nahi lagne par, mai aanewale dino mein us'se kaafi relaxed feel karne laga,
aur office mein bhi ham dono ka behaviour kaafi normal hone laga.
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But still yet, apni baato mein hamdono, ek dusre ke gay hone ki baat ka kabhi bhi koi reference ya hint nahi dete thhe.
Even thou ke uus site par woh muje 'handsome' keh kar hi bulata tha, magar kabhi usne muje aisa signal nahi diya ke woh mujme interested hai.
whatever..
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magar aaj..
"Late night with the boyfriend..?" -Soloman ne meri taraf wink karte hue kaha. uske chehre par koi anjaani si khushi chhalak rahi thi.
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"hmmm.." -mai sirf haami bhar ke ruuk gaya, aur fir uus topic ko change karne ke irade se puchha- "So..? why are you so happy with yourself this morning..?"
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"I hooked up with a fittest guy, last night..!" -woh khilkhilate hue bola.
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Woh aaj kuchh jyada hi khush tha, kisi se milne par.
Itna Khush ke hamare uus unspoken-rule ko bhula kar woh openly gay baatien karne laga tha.
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muje bhi aaj jarurat thi, kisi aise dil ki, jis ke aage mai kuch halka ho saku.
Toh Soloman ki baato se muje koi uncomfort feel nahi hua.
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"He was really nice. -usne jaari rakkha- I think he just wanted a 'one-night' thing though. And not that I mind too much about it."
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"Didn't swap numbers then?"-I asked.
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"Nah...So what's up with you then? Since yesterday you've not seemed yourself..?" -jo baat usey pinch kar rahi thi woh usne puchh hi daali.
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6mahine pahle ke hamare chat-session ke through Soloman itna toh jaanta tha ke mai kisi ke saath long-term steady ja raha hu, magar uska naam etc ki jyada personal baate maine us'se share nahi kari thi.
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kitna bhi maine chaha ke yeh baat mere aur Ronnie ke beech rahe..magar fir bhi meri aankhe bhar aayi.
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"Just...not been sleeping well." -maine tar'raati hui aawaz mein kaha magar fir apne aap ko samhalte hue, apne laptop par kaam mein busy hone ka dhong karta raha.
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"You sure...?" -He asked quietly.
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"Yeah...but to be honest, it's not something I really wanna talk about . Thanks though." -maine softly and respectfully usey kaha.
It was lovely of Soloman to be showing such concern, but I actualy, mai mood mein nahi tha.
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"Well you know where I am, if ever you need me." -cabin se bahar nikalte hue woh bola.
aur mai akela reh gaya fir se, apni cabin mein.. (Contd..)
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