Bhul Gaya Sab Kuchh (9)

.
Meri MRI Reports ke hisaab se,
mujey operation karwa lena chahiye, agar muje life-long safely jina ho to.
Lekin us'se meri yaad-dasht waapas aa jayegi, iski koi guarantee Doctor nahi de rahe thhe.
Besides agar memories laut bhi aayee, to shayad mai firse gay bann jaau, jo ke muje manzur nahi tha.
Aur isiliye mai operation karwane ko hesitate kar raha tha.
Sanjay ko Power of Attorney de kar, maine usey mera Medical Surrogate bana diya tha.
Aur woh chahe to apna power istemaal kar ke, mere MRI Report ka supoort lekar, court me mujey mentally-disabled prove karke, operation karwane ka court se statuatory order bhi la sakta tha.
.
Really..?
No..
Kyo ke, mujey uus par pura bharosa hai..
woh koi zabardasti nahi karega, aur na hi honey dega..
woh meri wish ko surely respect karega.
.
Magar, mai ab nayi conflict me aa gaya tha.
Itna to mai samazta tha, ke meri koi bhi zidd itni badi nahi hai, ke jo meri jaan ki salamati se bhi badi ho.
Simple truth hai yeh, ke brain me jo dangerous blood-clot hai, usey nikaalna hi hoga, agar mujey safely jeena hai, toh.
magar..toh fir muje kya karna chahiye..?
.
.

Aakhir, Maine apni haar maan li.. aur operation ke liye haami bhar di.
Sanjay ne relief ki saans li.
.
"Good," Deol bhi abhi muskura diye.
"Dr. Manju Agarwal ne jo preliminary tests liye hai, uske reports abhi fresh hai, to unhey mai, surgery ke liye medical clearance ke taur par, istemaal kar sakunga. Iisliye dobara wohi sab test karne mein time-waste karne ki koi jarurat nahi." unho ne apni opinion zaheer ki.
.
Fir unho ne apne drawer se ek paper nikaal kar muje diya. "Neuro-surgery ke liye sab instructions isme diye gaye hai. Padh lo. Aur parso, wednesday ko subah 7.30 ko aa jaao. Ham operation kar hi lete hai."
.
Mai office gaya.
Madan ko saab haal bataya -ke pura week mai nahi paunga.
Jitne ho sakey utne cases nipta kar, baaki ke cases apne associates ke hawale kar diye.
Din pura hua, to Madan ne muje hug karte hue 'All the Best' kaha,
aur thursday ko mujse milne aane ka wada kiya.
.
Sanjay ne tuesday se thursday/friday tak ki leave le li.
Dono ka din ekdam busy gaya.
mere ghar pahuchne ke 5mins pehle hi wo ghar me aaya tha.
Muje dekh kar woh apni promise bhul gaya, aur mujse lipat gaya..
Aaj maine usey waisa karne diya.
Uski annkhey chhalak uthi..
.
"All will be fine..." maine kaha.
"Ek baat kahu" usne pucha.
"yeah, sure"
"I don't care what u are praying for. But I'm praying for you, to come back to me, once again."
.
"Jo bhi hona hai, ho," maine kaha. "But Sanjay. I don't think we must think about it, much."
Sanjay ne ACTUALLY ek heart-breaking aah bhari, aur bed-room ki taraf bhag utha.
.
Puri shaam woh udaas raha..
Jab ham soney gaye, tab bhi woh apne aap me nahi tha.
Mai reh nahi saka..apne rules khud hi tod diye maine.
usey apni baaho me bhar liya,
aur chhote bachche ki tarah usey sulane laga,
itna dhyan rakhte hue ke mera lund uske badan ke kisi part ko touch na kar jaaye.
.
Uus raat ko, I mean, monday night ko, muje neend nahi aa rahi thi.
Aaj subah ko meri MRI report study ki gayi aur uskey baad, ab parsho wednesday ko mera operation honey wala hai.
Maine Sanjay ko raai di ke -"hamey ab jyada nahi sochna chahiye"
.
Poor guy..!
woh toh apni udaasi samete hue neend ke hawale ho gaya,
magar der raat tak, mai jaagta raha..
Pata nahi, operation ke baad kya honewala hai.
Mere baaju me, bed ke opposite end par Sanjay soya hua tha.
Mai uske chehre ko nihaarta raha.
Kitna masoom sa, kitna innocent naujawan hai..
kya iiske dil mein koi bhi paap ho sakta hai..?
kya iiske dil me koi bhi selfishness hogi..?
"Nahi. Never. Aisa kuchh nahi hoga iiske dil mein.." ab ki baar mere dil and dimaag dono ka jawaab similar tha..
aksar mere dil ki baat, mera dimaag nahi manta tha,
aur kai baar iis'se ulta bhi hota tha..
magr, this time both of them agreed with each other.
.
Dr.Deol ki office mein, ek pal ke liye muje afsos toh hua tha apna power of attorney, Sanjay ko dekar, usey apna Medical Surrogate banane ke liye..
magr, very soon I got myself recovered from that mis-thinking.
.
khair, thank gaya mai sab sochte sochte,
aur fir bor hokar bistar se khada ho gaya..
Sanjay ko uthana theek nahi samja maine..
socha, hospital mein le jaane ka kuch samaan ikattha kar liya jaaye.
.
uuthkar apne wardrobe ki aur gaya..
Dr.Deol ne diya tha, woh requirements ka list nikaal kar check karne laga.
Kuch toiletaries aur personal cheezein thi, jo ke bath-room aur ward-robe mein se mil aaye..
kuchh samaan medical store se khareedna padega, aisa laga..
ek woollen monkey-cap bhi thi list mein, jo shayad iis season mein na miley kahiin,
aur shayad apne ghar me yeh already maujuud ho, toh, toh koi problm hi nahi..
yeh aisi item thi, jo day-to-day istemal ki nahi hai..
aisa soch kar usey maine dressing table ke drawer me dhundna chaha..
.
Drawer tatola kuch der tak..
tab jaa ke kaafi deep-inside, muje ek motti-si black cover waali note-book nazar aayee, jiske nichey ek woollen cap dikhi muje.
"Yeh to office ka stuff hai..isey to office me hona chahiye, ye yaha kya kar rahi hai..?" aisa soch kar, uus note-book ko wahaan se nikala,
aur apney bed ke side table pe rakh diya..
tabhi uskey nichey muje monkey-cap bhi mil aayi..
mere chehre par halki si satisfaction ki lehar daud gayi..
.
sab samaan, jo bhi ikattha hua tha, usey ek bag mein bhar diya..
ekaad peg whiskey ka pi lu, to shayad neend thikse aa jaye, aisa soch kar ek peg bana laya, aur bistar pe baith gaya..
ahista ahista chuski bharte bharte maine woh note-book uthaai aur uskey panney palat'te hue overview karne laga..
kab whiskey ka peg pura ho gaya pata hi nahi chala..
***********

Operation ke baad Dr.Deol operation-room se bahar aaye,
aur waiting-room mein Sanjay se milkar uskey kandhe par haath rakh kar usey kaha -"Operation as routine hi tha..achcha ho gaya hai..nothing to worry..Sar pe thode baal shave kiye hai utna hi, baaki woh pehle jaisa hi dikhega. Kuch kuch hosh mein hai woh..ICU mein le kar gaye hai..wahi rakhenge usey. U can visit him in some time."
"What about his memory and his.." Sanjay ne pucha..
"It'll be too early to tell anything about those things." Sanjay ki baat puri hone se pehle hi, unho ne jawab diya. "Abhi tak woh foggy hai, give him a few hours to regain his senses completely"
.
Sanjay, nurse ko puchhte hue ICU mein aaya..
mai aadhi neend mein tha..

"Still sleeping..dawaai ka asar hai.." saath me aayi nurse ne kaha. "but you can sit at his bedside, if you want."
"yeah, i would like to sit" kehkar Sanjay mere paas baith gaya.
.
Jaise hi nurse gayi..Sanjay ne parda laga diya.
Fir mere maathe par kiss kiya..
halka sa..
masum sa..
aur kursi par baith gaya.
Mera haath apne haath mein lekar, thoda sa zor dekar dabaya..
woh samaj nahi paya, magar meri aur se, mere haath ka thodasa dabav, usne bhi mehsus kiya hoga.
.
I continued to doze for over an hour.
uus darmyaan thodi thodi der mein Sanjay ne socha hoga, ke mai jaagne wala hu, magar mai har baar fir se neend me chala jaata.
At last, Sanjay bhi baithe baith neend ke jokey khane laga.
Ham dono ek dusre ke haath ko dabaye hue sotey rahe...der tak.
.
.
Maine dekha, ke parde lagey hue hai, aur hamey kaafi privacy mili hui hai.
Palang ki corner par sar rakhkar, mera haath dabaye hue woh so raha tha.
Maine apna sar janjoda, ye jaan'ne ke liye ke mai kahaan hu,
aur ghar se, mai yaha kaise aa gaya.
.
Itna to fix tha, ke mai ghar par nahi hu.
Ghar pe hota toh, Sanjay bistar mein mere saath soya hota.
Apna dusra khaali haath, maine uske resham se mulayam baalo me ghumaya.
pichhle 10 din me kya kya ho gaya..
Monday Night ko mere sar me aisa zakhm hua jiska muje khud ko pata nahi chala.
Pata chala to Tuesday Morning ko, ke uus ki wajah se meri past-memories aur meri gay feelings gaayab ho chuki hai and I became totally blank. Sanjay ne muje ghar par foto-album dikhakar aur garden mein morning walk lete-lete sab yaad dilane ki koshish ki. Hotel me lunch lekar ghar aaye, aur dopahar 3 baje Dr. Manju se mile, jisne mere Preliminary Tests liye, aur thurday ki, Dr.Deol ke saath appointment fix kari. Shaam ko woh, hamari favourite and permanent Hotel Food-Land mein lekar gaya, aur hamare regular friends se indirectly, pehchaan karvaai. Drinks n dinner ke baad, ghar aakar hamne Ek Gay aur ek hetro Porn DVD dekhi, mere re-action jan'ne ke liye, jo Sanjay ne dusre din, Dr.Manju ko bataye honge, aur unho ne in-turn Dr. Deol ko report kiye honge.
Dusre din Wednesday morning ko Sanjay ne muje apni office ka address aur baaki staff ke baare me guide kiya, aur muje office bheja. Dinbhar kaam ke baad, apni secretary Shefali ke saath, ek hotel me sex kiya, aur akele raat guzari.
Next day Thursday Morning ko ghar gaya, to Sanjay ruth kar ghar chhor ke chala gaya tha, aur tabhi meri MRI bhi honewali thi. Mai ekdam mayus aur helpless ho gaya uske bina, toh usey request kar ke, usey maine fir mana liya. Uske rehne se meri MRI bina koi pareshani ke, puri ho paayi. Afternoon ko, usney mere favourite Toast-pakuade bana kar khilaye. Magar khane ke baad mai nashe me so raha tha, tab usney mere saath sex kiya, jiska muje bahut bura laga. Maine use'se shart rakhi ke aisa agar fir hua, to mai ghar chhor ke chala jaunga. Shaam ko maine aise 2 sapne dekhe, jisey muje ehsaas hua ke Sanjay mere liye kuch bhi kar sakta hai..apni jaan bhi de sakta hai.. Raat mein, usney mere liye fir meri dher saari pasandida items ka dinner banaya mere liye khaas. Magr fir bhi, hamne ek hi bed mein 2 opposite corner pe soney ka decision liya. Aur saturday ko 2 queen beds lene ka faisla kiya.
Next day friday morning ko, hamne half an hour jaldi uthne ka faisla kiya, kyu ke pehle ki tarah mai uske saath shower lena nahi chahta tha. Office gaya, to Dr. Deol ne kaha ke MRI reports aa gayi hai, so Monday ko consulting ke liye bulaya. Shaam ko mai sex ke liye GB road ke Red-light area me gaya. Waha se ek ladki ko lekar hotel me gaya, aur sex ka maza liya. Ghar me aakar Sanjay ke saath drinks lete lete, usne muje apni feelings jataayi. Magr har din ki tarah mai, apni baato baato mein, usey hurt karna nahi chuka.
Saturday ko dinbhar meri tabiyat kharab rahi, par maine dekha ke is'sey sanjay kaafi worried raha mere liye.
Next day Sunday ko Mandir gaye aur fir Central-Garden. Sanjay muje apni pichhli zindagi ke baare mein ek se ek chhoti chhoti baatien batane mein bilkul hi tired nahi hua tha..maine yeh realize kiya achchi tarah. Har raat ham alag alag corner par sotey, aur subah tak ham ek dusre ko lipat jaate, magar jaagte hi mai ek jhatke se us'se alag ho jata. Sanjay sab tolerate karta raha. Mere dil mein jealousy paida karne, woh do baar kisi ladke ke saath soney bhi gaya. Par maine apni possessiveness bilkul nahi jataayi. Is'sey bechare ki mayusi badhti gayi.
Dusre din Monday ko, yaani mere hadse ek hafte ke baad, meri MRI Reports padh kar Doctor ne decide kiya ke wednesday, yaani ke aaj, mera operation kar diya jaay agar muje apni baaki ki zindagi sahi-salamat jina hai toh.
Aur aaj operation ho bhi gaya..

Kitna kuch ho gaya, iin 10 dino mein..aur waise dekho to kuchh bhi important nahi hua. Par yakeenan, ek test, ek kasuti toh ho hi gayi mere life-partner ki, jisne koi kasar nahi chhodi, yeh saabit karne me, ke maine jo saathi chuna hai, woh meri 100% right choice hai.
Uskey mulayam chehre par haath ghumate hue mai usey niharta raha..aur tab Sanjay hila-dula aur fir jaag gaya.
....................................
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
"Aur? chikney, kya ho raha hai..? kiske sapney dekh raha tha, bachchu?" maine aankh maarte hue, muskura kar puchha.
Ham dono jaage... toh yeh mera pehla sentence tha.
"who else, honey? " Sanjay ne kaha, "kaafi dino se 'kuchh' mil nahi raha hai, tujse"
"Hamey 'kuchh' karna padega..taaki tujey complain ka mauka na miley, waise complain toh iisko bhi hai.." keh kar maine Sanjay ka haath pakda, dabaya, aur nichey le gaya..mere lund ki taraf..
"Thank you God," Sanjay ne aah bhari, "My baby is back"
.
Ham ghar aaye.
Ghar aatey hi, Sanjay ne muje bistar pe letaya aur meri baazu me aa kar leit gaya.
Ham dono tab nange thhe, jaise pehle hua karte the.
Sanjay ne muje sehlaya.
Ghar par, meri uus pehli shaam ko, mai jyada hila dula nahi.
Mai sidha leita raha, aur Sanjay ko sab kuch karna pada.
magar woh khush tha.
Apni tongue se, usne mere pure badan ka muaina kiya.
Ussey koi jaldi nahi thi..saari raat thi uskey paas.
Mere badan ki ek ek inch par uski zubaan, tab tak ghumti rahi, jab tak woh thak nahi gaya.
At last, usne mere andue ko chusna shuru kiya, aur fir mere khade lund ko upar se nichey chaatne laga..
Mai aankhey moond kar leita raha, aur uska khubsurat zulm sehta raha.
saath saath khushi ki kilkaariya deta raha.
.
"I know, maine tuje yeh sab karne nahi diya tha, jab mai bimaar tha." Maine kaha, "mai saala, chutiya tha, really."
.
Sanjay ne comment karne ki, koi parvaah nahi ki.
Woh busy tha..mera lund chusne me.
Woh apna jaadu dikhata raha..
itne saalo ka experience aur uska mere liye ka pyaar, aur mere jism ke liye ki uski waasna..all three had added up togather.
Kuch hi minutes mein, maine apne anduo mein kuch harkat hoti hui mehsus ki..
mera maal andar taiyaar ho raha tha..
agar ab woh nahi ruka to abhi explosion ho jayega..
aur woh ruka..
.
apna lund haath mein liye, woh mere siney par baith gaya,
apne dono paanv done side me kar ke..
fir uska mazbut lund mere hotho pe ragadne laga..
mera muh khul gaya..automatically.
Maine uske lund ko muh me liya.
.
Lovingly and surprisingly, mai usey apne halak se nichey utarte hue feel karne laga..
woh taiyaar hi tha..
bas do ya chaar dhakko ki baat thi..
aur uskey lund se fuhaar chhut padi, uske prem-lava ki..
mere muh me bina koi taste diye hue, woh mere galey se nichey utarne lagi..
bina koi mehnat, mai usey nigalte gaya..
.
maine uskey face par satisfaction ki woh lakeer dekhi, jisne uske chehre ko aur bhi handsome bana diya..
yahaan, mera lund uske saliva se lathpath hokar chamak raha tha..
ab Sanjay apne dono paanv meri dono side me failaye hue rakh kar, pichey hata,
aur mere lund pe baithne laga..ahista ahista..
aur mera lund uski gaand mein aasani se jaane laga..
kisi bhi pareshani ke bina, pura lund usne apne andar sama liya.
Uski aankhe bandd thi
aur mukh par thhe satisfaction ke bhaav.
Kuch der upar nichey karne laga..
apni hi rythm aur style mein..
maine usey free hand de diya tha,,
aur apni aankhe moond kar, mai apne maze le raha..
kuch hi dhakko ke baad, mere lund ne uske gaand ki diwaaro bhigo diya, apni chikni garm malaai se..
.
Aaj ke love-session mein, mai har baar ki tarah, jyada reciprocate nahi kar paya tha..
I wasn't much active..
jo bhi kiya, sab Sanjay ne hi kiya..
mai to bas leita raha..
but, Sanjay cared least about it..
.
Lekin, kuch dino ki recovery ke baad. mai usey puri tarah satisfy karne laga.
Ab woh khush tha..
kaafi khush..
puri tarah khush..
bedroom ke andar bhi, aur bahar bhi..
.
.
.
.
Kariban ek mahine ke baad...
.
Mai Dr.Deol ki office me follow-up visit ke liye gaya..
"Dr.Deol, there is something, which you need to know.." maine kaha
"ok..? anything serious ?" unhone puchha
"Shayad, yeh ek confession hai..sirf aap liye..kisi aur ko iis baat ka pata nahi chalna chahiye. Agree ? maine kaha.
.
Unho ne sar hila kar haan kahi..
.
"I am still not cured.." jitni simple ho sakey, utni karke, maine baat kari. "meri memories wapaas nahi aayi hai..aur mai abhi bhi, straight, hetro hi hu"
.
Surprise hokar doctor kuch kehne lage..magar maine apna haath dikha kar unhe rok liya.
.
"Operation ki pahle wali raat ko, mai operation ke liye jaruri aisi cheeze pack kar raha tha, tab muje mere dressing table ke drawer se, ek badi si dairy mili..Woh hi, jo meri likhi hui thi.. maine apne current hand-writing se uski likhaawat mila kar deka tha. And I don't think, Sanjay ko uus dairy ke baare mein pata hai.. agar usey malum hota, toh meri past-life ki itni saari baate batane ke bajaay, woh dairy hi padhwa leta. Usme kai saalo ki baatein likhi hui hai..Jabse mai Sanjay se mila..aur iis hadse ke kuch din pehle tak ki..
Maine woh padhi..aur muje ehsaas hua, ke ham dono ek duje ke liye kitna maaine rakhte hai. kisi waqt, mai usey kitna pyaar karta tha..and finally, muje realize hua ke woh kitna mayus hua hoga, mere badal jaane se.. I was destroying his life..
Magar us'sey bhi jyada..uus dairy ne woh sab baatein bhi bataayi, jo Sanjay muje nahi bata paya tha; jaise ke mere Daddy ki taraf ki meri feelings; meri step-mother ka, meri aur ke negative attitude ki wajah; Mai, Madan mere partner, ko mil kar kitna lucky tha uska ehsaas; aur Mai uske sexy body par bhi, kitna marta tha..etc..etc
Operation ke baad mai jab jaaga, to Sanjay ko mere bed pe soya hua paya.. I was overwhelmed with love for him. kisi bhi doubt ke bina, mai yeh baat samaj chuka tha, ke meri zindagi ka woh best person tha. Woh ek hi saksh hai jiske saath mai apni baaki life bita sakta hu. Maine uusi waqt kasam le li, ke mai uske saath sex karke ek couple ki tarah rahunga. India ke sabhi married-gay bande, ek hi similar baat kehte hai..ke woh aankhe muund kar, apni fantasy mein mard ko visualize kar ke, apni wife ke saath successfully sex kar paate hai. Well, mere case me ulta ho raha hai..I visualize being with women, when i'm having sex with Sanjay. He's a fantastic lover and he can do such things to me, that no woman would do. Magr iiska ye matlab nahi, ke mai kisi khubsurat ladki se jyaada, uske saath sona pasand karunga..
But the bottom line is that, sex is only a small part of a relationship. And as a life-companion, Sanjay ko chhor kar, mai kisi bhi person ke baare mein soch bhi nahi sakta. "
.
"Magar yeh sab tum muje kyu bata rahe ho ?" Doctor ne pucha.
"Because gay se straight, aur straight se gay ban'ne ki reason aapne dhuund li hai, aisi misunderstanding aap ko, meri wajah se ho sakti hai. Aur totally wrong direction ki research mein, aap apna time waste na kare, iisliye yeh batana mera farz hai. Muje lagta hai aapke research ke upar, iis baat ka profound effect padd sakta hai"
"Of course, padega. I appreciate u, telling me all this. But do you think, ke tum ye sab kabhi bhi Sanjay ko kehne waale ho ?"
"Nahi, I love him too much, I can never hurt him again"
.
Mujse agla sawaal karne se pehle Doctor ne apni nazrein jhuka li, as if he knew, ke woh muje hurt karnewale hai, -"married-gay bande, dusre mard ke saath sex karke apni wife ko aksar cheat karte hai, kya tumne Sanjay ko cheat kiya hai, ya karne ka plan hai, dusri ladki se sex kar ke?"
.
"to be very honest doctor, maine ab tak ek baar aisa kiya hai. Aur muje lagta hai, aisa aage bhi hoga. Lekin iiske defense mein mai itna hi kahunga, ke Sanjay ko mai bedroom mein, khush toh rakhta hu na. muje malum hai usey kya kya achcha lagta hai, aur mai woh sab karta hu. I just pretend, ke he is a beauty queen, jisey maine abhi abhi Miss India ka taaj pehnaya hai. Sirf ek saath rehkar bhi, ham dono ek duje ko khush rakte hai. And so I don't feel the guilt."
"Well, in that case, good luck for your future life." Dr.Deol ne itna kehkar apni mulakat puri kar di.
.
Dr.Deol haar maan'ne waalo mein se nahi thhe.
Mai unhe aksar milta raha.
Unho ne apni research jaari rakhi thi.
Unhe kaafi aise bande milte rahe, jo ke gay se straight ban'na chahte thhe.
Doctor unke dimaag ka wohi spot, (jaha muje maar lagi thi) stimulate karne me concentrate karte rahe.
magar koi farq nahi pada.
kisi bande ko, woh aisa karke, gay se straight nahi bana paaye.
Aakhi unho ne aisa conclude kiya, ke mera ek exceptional kissa hi hai, jisme aisa hua hai..
aur akhir apni research chhor dene ka decision liya.
.
.
.
Aur yaha, mera kya hua hai..?
mai din-ba-din Sanjay ka diwana hota chala.
In exact words..he completed me.
uske bina mai adhura tha...
kai baar toh aisa hota hai, ke apna lund khada karne ke liye, muje kisi ladki ko fantasize bhi nahi karna padta hai.
Woh jis tarah se mujme sexy feelings paida karnewala hai, uski imagination se hi, mera toh kadak ho jata hai.
But yes, maintaining my erection is a bit difficult for me.
Tab muje apni fantasy shuru karni padti hai, ke mai ek ladki ke saath hu.
Aur tab ja ke mai us'sey apna sex-play jaari rakh sakta hu.
.
Lekin haan..
jab actual sex chahiye hota hai, tab mere paas Shefali bhi hai..
Woh baaki ladkiyo ki tarah conservative nahi hai, jo ke without marriage ke sex relations, long time ke liye nahi rakhti..
hamare pehle sex-encounter par woh mujse naraaz thi, kyu ke mai Sanjay ko yaad kar raha tha us'sey sex karte waqt.
Magar ab woh koi discomfort nahi feel kar rahi..
usey to, mere khubsurat mardana jism se hi chaahat hai..
Woh Sanjay se bilkul duur hai, aur na hi us'se koi social rishta rakhna chaahti hai..
.
.
Roz mai apney aap se puchhta tha, ke-
kya..mai Sanjay se yeh sach hamesha ke liye chhupa paunga..?
.
Aur ek raat..
jab Sanjay meri baaho me chein ki neend so raha tha,
aur mai usey pyaar se nihaar raha tha..
tab, shaam ko suna hua kisi purani film ka gaana, muje yaad aa gaya..lekin apni hi alag style mein...
"Bhul Gaya Sab Kuchh..
  Yaad Nahi Ab Kuchh..
  ho..ho..hmm..hmm..ho....
  Bas yehi Baat Na Bhula..
  Yaaraa... I Love You.."
.
par ussi waqt, uska chehra dekhte dekhte, muje ek mental enlightment hui,
ke nahi...!
Sanjay is too smart, to be fooled for so long time.
us'se yeh baat chhupi nahi reh payi hogi.
Definitely, mere sexual passion mein farq to aayi hi hai.
Aur dusre mard ko physically satisfy karne ki meri ability me bhi toh, farq aaya hoga.
chahe kitna bhi chhota ho, magar Sanjay ne woh difference, feel to kiya hi hoga. Definitely.
.
tab ja ke,
muje ehsaas toh ho hi gaya,
ke Sanjay sachaai se waqeef hai,
aur fir bhi..
mere love aur companianship ko accept karne ko taiyaar hai.
.
Mere iis ehsaah ne,
Sanjay ke liye mere pyaar ko, aur bhi gehra bana diya..
.
Maine usey kass kar, apni baaho me jakad liya..
meri aankhey bhar aayi, yeh samajte hue, ke mai kabhi bhi...
waisa mard nahi bann paunga,
jaisa ke woh chaahta hai, aur deserve bhi karta hai..
.
.
THE END
==============================