Ishaak, mera chhupa pyarusne muje urgently apne ghar bulaya fon kar ke
yeh kehte hue ke woh koi weird, behuda problem mein phansa hua hai..
Mai speed-limit ke over ja kar drive karta hua uske ghar pahucha..
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Wo sidiyo par khada tha,
bas ek leather ki pant pehne huey.
Uska upari badan pasiney se chamak raha tha.
Ishaak, woh chahita mard
aisa stud jisey...
jisey mai kabhi pa nahi sakunga.
woh iisliye, kyu ke woh bhi utna hi 'top'
banda hai, jitna ke mai hu..
isiliye woh kabhi bhi apne aapko, muje submit nahi karega.
my hard luck...
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Kitni na-insaafi hoti hai...
jab do mard, ek samaan 'hathiyaar' se sajey hue ho, sex ki prakriya karne ko,
duniya ke uus hissey mein,
jahaan har koi, har kisike saath chudai karta hai.
Aur tab dono mardo ko pata chale..
ke woh dono toh uus 'see-saw' ke ek hi end par baithe hue hai,
jo ke ek relationship ko smoothly chalata hai.
Har relationship ke 'see-saw' mein ek end par top hota hai aur dusre par bottom.
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Ok chalo, maanta huun,
kabhi kabhi relationship mein, aisi chutiya jaisi idea ko koi jagah nahi hoti..
lekin fir bhi,
uusme ek woh hota hai jo ke dheela chhorta hai, let-go karta hai
aur dusrawala haavi hota rehta hai.
Magar hamrey kisse mein Ishaak kabhi bhi apne aap ko dheela nahi chhorega..mere liye
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Uski sexuality toh bas uusi mein samaayi hai,
ke woh ek macho-type chodnewala top bann kar,
submissive, kamzor type mard, ka charge puri tarah le leta hai,
ji haan..
meri hi tarah..
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kuch kuch baar ham dono ne sex karne ki koshish kari thi,
magar fir..
hamare woh sex-sessions, jagde aur hand-fights par hi khatm hue thhe.
Ab, itne kharaab bhi nahi thhe woh jagde..
magar fir bhi..
yeh aisi bhi toh baat nahi hai, jo ke aap apne lover mein hona pasand karoge.
Ham dono iis ke liye guilty feel kar rahe thhe.
Magar lagta hai...
khair..
forget it yaar..
ye necessary nahi ke aap apni puuri life, ya baaki ki life
apne lover ke saath bita paao.
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Tell u what..
ek gay novel iin dino publish hui hai.
Man-to-man romance ki book..
and it is written by..
by whom?
by a woman...hahahaha..
Ulti aati hai yaar, muje us'se.
jo bhi likha hai usme..
Woh sab fake hai.. sab fake..
duniya bhar ke emotional gobar se bhari hui..,
jisey muje lagta hai sirf ladkiya hi pasand karti hogi.
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Uskey andar bas, uun soft gay-mardo ki hi baatein hai,
jo ke apne lover ki feelings ko samajte hai..
apne lover ki gaand mein apna paani nikalne ke baad bhi,
wo chutiye usko apni baahon me jakad ke rakhte hai.
Uske baalo mein haath pasaarte rehte hai..
aur wohi sab blah..blah..blah..
all such bullshit..
kya hai ye sab ?
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Gay mardo mein straight mardo se jyada feelings hoti hai, aisa kahin saabit hua hai kya?
Aur fir yaar, aurato ko kya jhaant malum hota hai gay lovers aur unke 'passionate' dilo ke baare mein?
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Agar aisa hota to Ishaak muje aa kar lipat na jaata..!
wahaan khada ho kar muje dekhta kyu rehta ?
aur achanak, zor se hans kyu padta, yeh kehte hue -
"I am so sorry, muje tere ko yahaan bulana pada, lekin yaar.. this is so fucking embarrassing..!"
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Yeh suun kar Mera dil 100 ki raftaar se sochne laga.
Ishaak ke liye 'embarassing' kya ho sakta hai?
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ma ki aankh.. wo aisa mard hai,
jisne apne latest video mein 10 collegian ladko ko baandh kar,
unki chudaai kar ke, unke upar pishaab kiya hai,
yehi woh banda hai, jisne ek body builder ki gaand mein, various size ke dildo ghusa kar,
ajeeb ajeeb kartab dikhaye thhe,
aur iis ke liye toh usne 7" ka solid gold ka danda inaam ke taur pe paaya hai.
Mr.leather aur Mr.Bondage ka award usey continuous 3 saal tak haansil kiya hai,
hamaari iis gay film-industry mein.
aisa banda aaj 'embarassing' feel kar rha hai ?
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arey..usne aisa sab kinky-stuff kiya hai, jo ke ek normal mard fantasize bhi nahi karta.
normal mardo ko agar aisa kuch karne ko kaha jaay toh
kahaan se suruaat ki jaaye, woh bhi uun bechaaro ko samaz mein nahi aata..
Jyada se jyada agar woh kuch kar sakte hai, to bas itna,
ke thodi hesitation ke saath, ruuk-ruuk ke,
ek comment pass karenge, -"kuchh kuchh insulting, degrading nahi lagta yeh sab karna?"
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Ab uun logo ko kya pata ke degrading kya hota hai?
uun normal mardo ko gay sex ke baare mein pata hi kya hai?
aur aap logo ko kya lagta hai?
ye sab kya sirf porn-filmo mein hi hota hai..?
kya ye sab sirf internet-porn mein hi hai?
real life mein kuchh nahi hota?
ek baar fir socho aap..
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22 saal se lekar 29 saal ki umar tak,
maine 600 se jyada amir-bando ko, apna jism kiraye par diya hu..
kisi ko ek ghante ke liye, to kisi ko pura week-end.
ek ko to pura 5 hafto ke vacation ke liye, uski luxarious yacht par.
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suun le mere dost,
meri zindgi mein, mard ki itni variety aayee hai,
jitni ke kisi badey se bagiche mein phhul aur patto ki bhi nahi hogi,
England ke amir-zaade..
Asia ke raees, jo ke multi-million dollers ki company chalate hai..
France ke nawaab..
Germany ke politicians..
Mexico ke gangsters etc etc..
Hollywood ke actors..
arey.. Adelaide se Zurich (A to Z) tak ke mafia ke bando ko maine chod dala hai..
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and believe me...
uun 600 bando mein se, 20 se 30 hi aise normal type honge,
jisne mere saath wohi boring jaisa, vanilla sex kiya hai..
aur haan,
sex ke baad ek bhi bande ne mere baalo mein apna haath nahi pasaara.
did u understand anything?
kuchh samje aap?
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Baaki bache bando ne, apni fantasies ko pura kiya hai..
mere jism ke jariye..
I mean.. maine unki fantasies ko unke hi jism ke thru pura kiya hai..
aur woh fantasies ek hi type ki thi..
arey wohi..
"kuchh kuchh insulting, degrading" type ki.
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woh sab behuda harkato ke pura hone ke baad,
uun sab ki himmat to dekho aap..
woh sab mujse apni biwi ke baare mein,
ya apne boyfrnds ke baare mein baatein karna shuru ho jaate thhe..
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ek gay banda, apni sidhi-saadi family mein straight ka 'role-play' kar raha ho..
us'sey jyada maayusi waali baat kya hogi yaar?
Apne bachcho aur apne paaltu kuttey-billi ke saath foto khichwane ke liye POSE dekar
woh yeh proov karna chahte hei, ke woh kitne khush hai...
MY FOOT !
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Aur Ishaak ne bhi toh jyadatar yehi kiya hai..jo ke mai karta aaya hu.
magar fir bhi abhi tak business mein hai..
uski abhi bhi demand hai..
meaningless sex ke baad, aati uus ajeeb udaasi se, abhi tak woh thaka nahi hai..
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Ishaak ek aisa mard hai..,
sab kuch dekha hai..
jisne sabkuchh kiya hai..
sab ko choda hai..har waqt.. har jagah..har style mein..
aur abhi aaj muje usne apni help ke liye bulaya hai..
aur fir kehta hai -it's embarassing situation'
iis duniya mein Ishaak ke liye, embarassing jaisa kuch bacha hi kya hai..!
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Wasie maine approximately 185-190 sex-clips mein kaam kiya hu..
aur woh sab movie-clips, illegal websites par se freely downloadable hai..
mera lund, aur us'se nikalta hua maal dekhne ke liye, kisi ko koi paise kharcha karne ki jarurat nahi padti.
aur iis baat ki kuchh to ahemiyat hai..
aur woh bhi..jab aap adult industry mein kaam karte ho, tab.
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Par maine yaha ek bank clerk se bhi kam paise kamaye hai..
aur yaha se lekar austraila tak ka, har gay banda mere chehre ko pehchanta hai,
mere lund ki size jaanta hai..
mere jism mein kaha kaha kaunse tattoo hai wo bhi usey yaad hoga..
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australia ka..ek kissa yaad aa rha hai, muje.
Ek baar mai australia mein tha,
tab ek banda, jo ke 'Motorala' ki kisi high-post par tha,
uusey main apni mutthi se chod raha tha..
mutthi se chodna..matlab uska lund pakadke mutth maarna nahi hota..
agar aap ek real porn-lover ho, toh aapko batane ki jarurat nahi ke
mutthi se chodna kya hota hai..
uski gaand mein apni puri mutthi ghusakar... u know
toh..
ham dono ek boat mein thhe.
aur uuse main apni mutthi se chod raha tha..
agal-bagal mein shark fishes ghum rahi thi
aur uski gaand mein mere haath ko ghusta hua dekh rahi thi..
tab achanak,
aise gheen aayee thi muje uus namuraad nawaab par,
ke jee karne laga, uski gaand se sab chithde nikaal kar, uun machhliyo ko khila du..
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magar ab toh..
muje pyaar aa rha hai Ishaak ke upar,
uske muskurate chehre ko dekh kar..
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Ishaak ne ek tikhi muskaan di.
Apne jeans ki pocket mein apne dono anguthe daal kar,
woh khada tha, darwaze ke bicho-bich.
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Mai muskuraya.
Ek hi pal mein maine usey fir se nihar liya..
ek din ki badhi huyi daadhi, uske gore chehre ko greenish shed de rahi thi.
30 saal ki umar mein bhi woh kaafi boyish lagta tha.
Uskey kaale baalo ki ek latt uske maathe par lahera rahi thi.
Uski woh hypnotize karne waali gehri, harey rang ki aankhe,
tumhe woh sab karne ko majboor kar deti hai, jo tum nahi karna chahte ho.
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Mai bhi agar, jawan aur akdu na hota,
toh mai bhi apne aap ko badal deta....uske liye.
Mai toh ab bhi badalne ko taiyaar hu yaar,
uska khilona ban'na chahta hu,
woh mere saath jo bhi karey, woh sab muje achcha lagega
sirf isiliye, ke meri baaki ki zindgi akelepan mein na guzre..
aur kyu na badlu..?
'top' toh mai baad mein bana,
magar meri sex life toh 'as a bottom' hi shuru hui thi..
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jab 'woh aurat' muje aur Pedro ko akela chhor kar gayi
tab usney ek letter likh ke chhora tha..
ke woh Pedro ko chhor kar jaa rahi hai,
aur saath mein Pedro ka kuchh kimmati saaman bhi liye ja rahi thi..
jiske liye usey kaafi afsos bhi tha,
magar badle mein woh muje chhor kar ja rhi thi,
taaki mai uski kami 'puura' kar saku..
isiliye usey aisa lagta tha ke Pedro ko afsos nahi karna chahiye..
haha..
ussey koi aur maal-daar banda mil gaya tha,
jo ke Pedro se bhi jyada influence wala tha.
Letter padhte hi muje samaz mein aa gya
ke ab meri zindagi mein kya bacha hai..
iis anjaan desh mein, kisi anjaan saksh ke saath muje rehna hai..
aisa mulk tha woh, jahaan koi kisi par koi mehrbaani nahi karta.
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20-22 mahine yaha reh kar mai yeh baat achchi tarah jaan chuka tha.
Toh Pedro muje paaalne-posne mein kyu paise kharch karega,
aur woh bhi tab...
jab ke meri ma uskey saare paise chura kar bhaag gayi hai.
Yeh sab baatein samjne ko mai koi chhota bachcha nahi tha..
I was 16yrs old.
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Uus raat ham dono kaafi akele aur udaas thhe.
Mai Pedro ke bed mein ja kar roney laga..
woh muje apni aaagosh mein lekar sulaane laga
Mai ahista ahista uskey siney ko sehlane laga..
meri aankho mein aansu thhe
Mai jaan chuuka tha, ke ab yeh shaks hi mera sahara hai.
Aur muje usey woh sab dena hai jo woh, in-future miss karne wala hai.
Aisa nahi ke woh muje pasand nahi tha,
29-30 saal ka tandurast khubsurat banda tha woh uus waqt.
aur mai toh usi ka wait kar rha tha, ke woh muje approach kare.
Magar uus din, muje hi usey approach karna padd raha tha.
magar maine decide kar liya tha,
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Pedro meri peeth par apna haath pasaarta raha.
Aur fir mera haath nichey uske lund par pahuch gaya..
Woh already kadak aur tana hua tha.
Aisi tharki condition mein bhi usne muje kaha -"yeh koi tarika nahi hai favour lautane ka. Tumhe yeh sab tabhi karna chahiey, jab tumhe pasand ho, yeh sab."
par mai ruuka nahi.
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I was determined to do whatever he liked.
Usne muje kaha ke -woh mujse sex iisliye nahi kar raha, kyu ke yeh ek tarika hai mujhse apni parwarish ke kharche ka muaavza lene ka. Woh toh muje pehle se hi pasand kar rha tha..
aur meri ma nahi bhi jaati,
to bhi.. aaj ya kal..
woh mujse ishq karne ka soch hi rha tha.
Magar ab jab ke mai akela reh gya hu, toh woh mere par koi jabardasti nahi karna chahta.
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Uske har mana karne par mai aur bhi firm and determined banta ja rha tha.
uus raat hamne sex kiya..
bharpuur sex kiya..
usne muje apni mardangi ka pura muaaina karne diya.
muje ehsaas karwaaya ke meri ma ke saath woh kaise sex karta tha..
ussi bistar par...jaha pichhli raat ko wo uus aurat ke saath soya tha.
uus raat ke baad, maine apni ma ki jagah le li..
usey raazi rakhne mein koi kasar nahi chhori.
Woh muje pyaar karta raha, saalo tak..
apni bivi ki tarah..
apne bete ki tarah...
apne lover ki tarha..
maine uski zindagi mein kushi aur masti fir se bhar di..
magar meri khushi aur meri masti kahaan hai..?
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woh toh abhi mere saamne khadi hai Ishaak ke ruup mein.
mere boy-frnd ke ruup mein..
lekin woh mera, ek porn-star ka boy-frnd banega..? (contd..)
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