.
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jab ishaak ne settle ho jaane ki apni baat kahi..
toh ek pal muje laga, ke woh mazaak kar rha hai..
ya fir, uus Magnotta ki baat se thoda disturb ho gya hai, ke..
kahi uski mentality bhi, rehte rehte uus bhediye ke jaisi naa ho jaaye..
magar nahi..
,
mai jaanta hu mere Ishaak ko..
uska jism chahe kitna bhi faulaadi ho, uska dil toh mom ki tarah mulayam hai..
insaniyat aur pyaar se bhara bhara
muje yaad hai..
ek baar ek sex-scene karne ke liye ham dono ko bulaya gaya tha..
waha ja kar dekha, ke jiske saath hamey sex karna tha..
woh bottom ladka, kaafi chhota dikh rha tha.
mushkil se 14 ya 15 saal ka..
height hogi hardly koi 4.5 ft ki..weight something about 45kgs..
koi 8th ya 9th standard ka ladka dikh rha tha
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ab itne chhote ladke ko, ham dono ko chodna tha..
lund toh mera bhi kaafi mota hai..
magar Ishaak ka aur bhi tagda hai..
woh toh kayamat dhaa sakta tha, uus ladke ki gaand mein ja kar
usey dekh kar Ishaak thoda nervous ho gaya
usne toh shooting karne ka inkaar kar diya
.
Director ne usey convince karna chaaha ke..
ladka height-body mein jyada grow nahi kar paya hai
par woh hai to 18 saal ka.
Fir bhi Ishaak ne uus ladke ka age-proof dekhna chaha
.
maine usey kaha -yaar, yeh responsibility to production-house ki hai, models ke age ko verify karne ki, tum kyo fikr karte ho..?
tab woh bola ke -production-house waale agar legal issues mein fanste hai, to kahin na kahin ham-dono, chodne waale bhi fans sakte hai..
muje yeh sab kuch jyada hi naatak laga, Ishaak ka..
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magar uus ne toh age-certificate verify kar hi liya..
jab usey pata chala ke ladka 18saal ka hai,
toh woh taiyaar toh ho gaya, uski gaand maarne ko
magar mujse bola -yaar, kaafi dhyaan rakhna padega, kahin kuch nuksaan na pahucha de ham, iis bachhe ke jism ko..
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uskey hisaab se ladke ki umar se jyada ladke ki body ke growth ko jyada importance dena chaiye..
kyo ke mentally, woh ladka chaahe kitna bhi matured ho gaya ho,
aur apni age ke hisaab se..ek adult hokar woh apna bhala bura samaj sakta hoga..
magar, uska jism toh abhi bhi ek bachche ke jitna hi adh-khila fuul ke jaisa hi hai..
aur hamey toh uske jism se khilwaad karna hai, aur na ke uske dil ya dimaag se..
uska dil aur dimaag chahe kitne bhi matured ho..
jism ko honeywale nuksaan se to woh bacha nahi sakte ladke ko.
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jab bhi ham sex-scene karte hai, to mostly sab performars ki yeh practice hai,
ke apne saath kaam karnewale bando ka latest medical test-certificate, check kar lete hai..
yeh dhyaan rakhte hue, ke woh ek mahine se jyada purana na ho..
Ishaak ne muje iis baat ka reference dete hue kaha ke -jab ham apni health ke itne alert reh sakte hai,
to fir illegal activities se bache rehne ke liye bhi, kaafi alert rehna chaiye..
afterall health aur law, dono factors porn-star ke career mein important hai.
.
Honestly speaking, maine kabhi itna pehle kabhi nahi socha tha..
Scene-khatm honey ke baad usey maine apna ek kissa bataya tha,
ke muje ek ladke ka call aaya tha, ek baar..
woh mera fan tha..aur mujse chudwaana chahta tha, apne ghar par.
Uskey parents nahi thhe ghar par, kuchh dino ke liye,
toh woh unki absence ka faaida uthana chah rha tha..
Ladka under-age ka tha..
magar kaafi masculine aur sexy tha..
dekhne par muje laga, ke uske saath sex karne mein koi harz nahi..
Maine uus ladke ko masti se chod dala..
ladka khuub enjoy kiya tha..
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Maine jab yeh kissa Ishaak ko sunaya tha..
toh woh muje gaaliya dene laga tha,
yeh kehte hue, ke mai ek-number-ka-chutiya hu..
kisi bhi under-age ladke ya ladki ke saath kabhi sex nahi karna chaiye
khaas taur pe, apna ghar chhor ke, kisi aur jagah par..
uskey parents kabhi bhi aa sakte thhe
ya toh fir, yeh ek trap bhi ho sakta tha..
woh ladka ya uska yaar, iis chudaai ki video shooting bhi kar sakte thhe
aur police mein de sakte thhe
ya fir muje blackmail bhi kar sakte thhe..
mere career ki vaat lag sakti thhi
aur jail mein jana padta tha, woh alag.
Kuch paise ki kamaai ke liye, mai ye risk kaise utha sakta hu, iis baat se woh taajjub ho gaya tha..
aur aainda aisa na karne ki, usne muje warning bhi de di.
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.
Toh aisa hai mera Ishaak
woh kabhi bhi koi illegal kaam nahi karega
aur hardam dusro ka khyaal rakhne wala..
chahe woh uska client, ya uska saath sex-scene karnewala koi anjaan sa actor kyo na ho..
.
kahaan mera Ishaak, aur kahaan woh maadarchod Megnotta..
Ishaak kyo darr jayega uus bhediye ki news suun kar..?
usne na kabhi koi galat kaam kiya hai..
aur na hi aisa gair-kanuuni kaam, kabhi woh karega..
toh definitely yeh to wajah nahi ho sakti
koi dusra hi kaaran hai, ke woh retirement ki baat soch raha hai..
koi dusri wajah, kya ho sakti hai..?
except, ke woh bhi mujse pyaar karne laga hai..
aur mere saath ab settle ho jaana chahta hai..
mai mann hi mann ye soch kar fuula nahi sama rha tha..
mere dil mein khushiyo ki fuljadiya fuutne lagi thi..
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'toh aakhir, tumhare dil mein bhi mera kehna maan hi liya..!' -maine kaha
'haan dost.. tum jab yeh baat par convince kar rahe thhe, ke -iis line mein umar bhar nahi reh sakte, aaj ya kal settle hona hi chaiye, -tab muje lagta tha ke, -nahi abhi aur aagey badhna hai, aur famous hona hai- magar ab lagta hai, kis kaam ki hai yeh naamna, ye khyaati jo izzatbhari zindagi na de sakey.. yeh aisi line hai jisme kabhi retirement hai hi nahi.. log tumko gaand par laat maar kar hataa de, tumhare badan ka ras chuus chuus kar tumhe bekaar bana de, us'se pehle agar shaan se nikal le yaha se, wohi akkalmandi hai. Bas itna ke, tumhare saath aisa koi hona chaiye, jo ke tumhare iis retirement ke baad, tumhe samaj sakey, tumhare saath ho, hardam..warna yeh retired life bhi dojakh bann sakti hai..uus Roman Ragazzi ke jaisa bhi hashar ho sakta hai..'
.
'haan.. woh toh bada hi kamnasib porn-star tha..magar tu itna extreme tak mat socha kar' maine fikr bhari aawaz mein kaha
.
'lekin tha toh woh apni hi line ka na..aur uska kissa bhi koi jyada purana nahi hai..bas feb'12 ki hi baat hai. Aur itne kam samay mein logo ki mentality mein fark toh nahi aaya hoga na? aur uus bande ko dekha hai na..? kitna manly aur strong, kitni zabardast height-body wala macho-man tha woh.. usey dekh kar koi soch bhi sakta hai kya, ke woh suicide kar lega..?'
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( dosto, iis famous gay porn-star ka kissa bhi kaafi tragic hai..
pichle Feb'12 ka yeh kissa, koi jyada purana nahi hai..
jab famous Gay porn-star Roman Ragazzi ne suicide kar li..
usko jisne bhi dekha hai woh kabhi bhi maan nahi sakta,
ke itna strong, bharpur height body wala macho-man aisa karega..
toh just imagine..
kitna metally tortured hua hoga yeh fauladi jism wala banda, ke usko aisa karna pada
yeh banda pehle Israel ka Military Trainer tha,
fir 'Raging Stallion Studio' ki gay-porns mein kaam kiya tha, kuch waqt ke liye.
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Kucch saalo baad, iis baat ko 'New-York Post' naam ke newspaper ne kahise find out kar liya..
aur fir, jab Roman Ragazzi, Israeli Consulate mein chup-chaap sharafat se job kar rha tha,
tab iis newspaper ne uske uski iis past-life ko expose kiya
aur fir, usey Consulate se resignation dene par majboor kiya..
Uske baad yeh former gay porn-star, khud ki personal training and fitness company "Freedom Fitness" shuru kar ke apni life chein se guzarne ki koshish mein tha..
magar duniya ne uuska pichha waha bhi nahi chhora..
aur aakhi uus bechare ko itna humiliate kiya, ke yeh iron man aakhir tuut hi gaya..aur yeh extreme kadam utha liya...apni jaan se khel gaya woh
so sad...)
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'uuski baat chhor, tu apni bata. tuney kisey chuuna hai, apni life ka hamsafar? ' -atmosphere ko jyada gloomy honey se bachane ke liye, maine baat ko main-track par lana chaahi.
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Halaanki mai jaanta tha ke woh kiska naam lega.
Magar ek ajeeb anand hota hai yeh baat apne mehboob ke muh se sun'ne mein.
Jab woh hamey propose karnewala hota hai, tab aisa lagta hai ke ham cloud-9 mein sair kar rahe hai.
Muje darr tha, ke woh kahin abhi ke abhi, muje ring na pehna de..
mere paas toh koi ring thi hi nahi, usey pehnane ke liye..
usne muje waqt hi nahi diya tha..
muje jab yaha usne bulaya toh yehi keh kar ke -woh koi ajeeb embarrasing situation mein fansa hua hai..
surprise dena Ishaak ke daaye haath ka khel rha hai.. always..
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'hai ek, jiske saath mai family bana kar settle hona chahta hu..waise family toh bachcho ke bina bann hi nahi sakti..
toh soch rha hu baad mein..matlab ke near future mein hi, ek do bachchey adopt kar lenge..'
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mai jaanta tha ke gay couple ko bachche adopt karne mein muskil toh kaafi hoti hai..
government kaafi jaanch-padtaal ke baad hi permission deti hai..
magar khair.. woh bhi ho jayega..i'm sure
waise, muje bhi bachche badey pyaare lagte hai
unki presence se hi toh ghar, ek ghar lagta hai..
kitni liveliness, kitni chehal pehal aa jaati hai mahoul mein..
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'kya soch rhe ho..? dekhna chahoge usey..?' -Ishaak ne muskuraate hue puchha..
at last, uskey handsome face par muskurahat aa hi gayi..
kitna khubsurat lagta hai, jab woh muskurata hai tab..
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'sure..'maine kaha.
'yeah?.. toh chalo room mein..' -mera haath pakad ke woh muje andar le jane laga
mai jaanta tha, ke woh muje room mein le jaa kar ek mirror ke saamne khada kar dega
aur kahega -dekh lo, mere jivan-saathi ko.
mann hi mann muskurate hue, mai uske pichhe piche varandah se room ke andar gaya..
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fir woh mera haath chhor kar aur bhi aage gaya,
dressing table ke drawer se kuch nikala
shayad hand-mirror tha..
aur usey haath mein liye meri taraf aaya..
mai wahin khada rehkar usey nihaarte raha..
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mirror dikha kar woh muje surprise dena chahta tha..
ab, mai toh pehle se hi uske surprise se waaqif hu..
magar muje uska dil nahi todna chahiye
kisi ko surprise dene ki kuch aur hi khushi hoti hai..
muje uski khushi ko todna nahi hai..
mai aise hi pretend karunga ke..
'wow, u mean it.. ? i can't beleive it.. ' -ya aisa kuchh
mai uske chehre par, woh khushi dekhna chahta hu, jo muje surprise kar ke uusey milegi
arey sirf yeh hi nahi..mai to usey duniya ki har khushi dena chahta hu.
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maine muskurate hue woh hand mirror uskey haatho se liya..
aur andar jaanka..
andar meri reflection ubhar aayi..aur mere chehre par muskurahat bhi..
maine uskey saamne dekha..
woh mere chehre ki muskurahat ko padh rha tha..
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magar..
magar.. mere honth kyo sikudne lagey hai..?
muskurahat mere chehre se gaayab kyo ho rahi hai..?
muje abhi khayal aaya hai ke, woh mirror nahi tha
woh toh sirf kaanch tha..
kaanch mein meri halki si reflection ke pichhey, ek tasveer bhi thi..
yes, woh to ek photo-frame thi..shishe se madhi hui..
usme foto tha..
meri himmat naihi hui, uss photo mein jo tha usko pehchan'ne ki
photo mein jo tha..?
nahi, thi..
yes, woh kisi lady ki photo thi..
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maine fir ek udti hui nazar daali uus lady ko dekhne ki
mera dil dhadakna bhuul raha tha..
ya.. kaffi zor se dhadak raha tha..
samj mein nahi aa rha tha..
muje kuchh chakkar se aa rhe hai..kya ho rha hai muje?
i'm sinking..
muje apne aap ko samhaal lena chaiye..
iis ke pehle ke mai gir jaau, muje apna balance apna sahara dhuund lena chaiye..
baaju mein padey table ka sahara le kar main khada ho gaya
uus photo-frame ko uus par samhaal kar rakh diya..
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'kya hua..? u ok..?' ishaak ne muje puchha
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'yeah..quite ok..'
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'no, u look to be quite shocked..' -usne muskurate hue kaha -"tum ko lagta hoga, ke mai Sania Brandon ko kaise jaanta hu, usey kaha mila.. hollywood ki iis film actress ke, mai itne karib kab aur kaise aa gya ke ab ham shaadi karne ko bhi taiyaar ho gaye.'
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'tum toh pehle se hi chuupe rustam ho dude..always tum muje surprise dene se nahi chukte'
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'hey.. isi mein toh maza hai'
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'lekin yaar, tum gay hokar ek ladki se..?'
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'yaar..woh ladki nahi, aurat hai..mujse kaafi badi hai woh umar main..aur gay toh mai hu, but i am bisexual..tum toh jaante ho maine bi-sexual aur hetro-sexual porns bhi kiye hue hai..kai ek aurato ke saath..sirf aurato ke saath ladkiyo ke saath nahi..you might be knowing I am into older woman. muje bharey bharey badan waali, badey badey boobs waali umar-daraaz auratein hi sexy lagti hai.. and u see Saniya is so sexy, yaar. And so loving lady' -Ishaak ne woh photo uthakar mere haath mein dete hue kaha..
'
maine ek nazar fir daali uus picture par..jaani pehchani surat thi..
ab holliwood ki film actress hai, toh face toh jana pehchana hi lagega..
waise muje filmo ka koi khaas shauk nahi hai.. par fir bhi kahin na kahin, kabhi na kabhi, shayad dekha hi hoga iis Sania Brandon ko.
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par muje koi interest nahi tha usmein..na pehle, aur na abhi..
muje toh bas, abhi nikalna hai yahaa se..
muje jaana hai yahaan se,
muje rona hai fuut fuut ke..
mujey agar kuch chahiye to bas ek aisa kandha jisme muh chhupa kar mai ro saku
mujye chaiye 2 aisi bahein jo muje samhaal sakey,
mere pichhey meri peeth par apne haath pasaar kar muje tasalli de sakey
yeh sab cheez muje Ishaak se mil sakti hai
magar ab uski aur se muje koi ummid nahi bachi..
toh fir..
oh my god..
Ishaak, muje jaane do..dost.
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'chal ab isi baat par ek ek beer aur ho jaaye'
'nahi dost, i'll have to leave now..
'arey baith na..'
sorry yaar.. tumhari emergency to khatm ho chuuki hai na..ab muje apna khyal lene de, fir baithenge kabhi fursat mein'
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keh kar mai nikal liya waha se..
magar kahaan jaau..?
muje jyada sochne ki jarurat hi nahi padi..
Ishaak se maayusi paane ke baad, ab agar muje kuch sukuun mil sakta hai toh..
woh hai Pedro ke paas.
aur chal diya, Pedro ke ghar..
jahaan se muje ek aur shock milne waali tha....... (contd..)
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jab ishaak ne settle ho jaane ki apni baat kahi..
toh ek pal muje laga, ke woh mazaak kar rha hai..
ya fir, uus Magnotta ki baat se thoda disturb ho gya hai, ke..
kahi uski mentality bhi, rehte rehte uus bhediye ke jaisi naa ho jaaye..
magar nahi..
,
mai jaanta hu mere Ishaak ko..
uska jism chahe kitna bhi faulaadi ho, uska dil toh mom ki tarah mulayam hai..
insaniyat aur pyaar se bhara bhara
muje yaad hai..
ek baar ek sex-scene karne ke liye ham dono ko bulaya gaya tha..
waha ja kar dekha, ke jiske saath hamey sex karna tha..
woh bottom ladka, kaafi chhota dikh rha tha.
mushkil se 14 ya 15 saal ka..
height hogi hardly koi 4.5 ft ki..weight something about 45kgs..
koi 8th ya 9th standard ka ladka dikh rha tha
.
ab itne chhote ladke ko, ham dono ko chodna tha..
lund toh mera bhi kaafi mota hai..
magar Ishaak ka aur bhi tagda hai..
woh toh kayamat dhaa sakta tha, uus ladke ki gaand mein ja kar
usey dekh kar Ishaak thoda nervous ho gaya
usne toh shooting karne ka inkaar kar diya
.
Director ne usey convince karna chaaha ke..
ladka height-body mein jyada grow nahi kar paya hai
par woh hai to 18 saal ka.
Fir bhi Ishaak ne uus ladke ka age-proof dekhna chaha
.
maine usey kaha -yaar, yeh responsibility to production-house ki hai, models ke age ko verify karne ki, tum kyo fikr karte ho..?
tab woh bola ke -production-house waale agar legal issues mein fanste hai, to kahin na kahin ham-dono, chodne waale bhi fans sakte hai..
muje yeh sab kuch jyada hi naatak laga, Ishaak ka..
.
magar uus ne toh age-certificate verify kar hi liya..
jab usey pata chala ke ladka 18saal ka hai,
toh woh taiyaar toh ho gaya, uski gaand maarne ko
magar mujse bola -yaar, kaafi dhyaan rakhna padega, kahin kuch nuksaan na pahucha de ham, iis bachhe ke jism ko..
.
uskey hisaab se ladke ki umar se jyada ladke ki body ke growth ko jyada importance dena chaiye..
kyo ke mentally, woh ladka chaahe kitna bhi matured ho gaya ho,
aur apni age ke hisaab se..ek adult hokar woh apna bhala bura samaj sakta hoga..
magar, uska jism toh abhi bhi ek bachche ke jitna hi adh-khila fuul ke jaisa hi hai..
aur hamey toh uske jism se khilwaad karna hai, aur na ke uske dil ya dimaag se..
uska dil aur dimaag chahe kitne bhi matured ho..
jism ko honeywale nuksaan se to woh bacha nahi sakte ladke ko.
.
jab bhi ham sex-scene karte hai, to mostly sab performars ki yeh practice hai,
ke apne saath kaam karnewale bando ka latest medical test-certificate, check kar lete hai..
yeh dhyaan rakhte hue, ke woh ek mahine se jyada purana na ho..
Ishaak ne muje iis baat ka reference dete hue kaha ke -jab ham apni health ke itne alert reh sakte hai,
to fir illegal activities se bache rehne ke liye bhi, kaafi alert rehna chaiye..
afterall health aur law, dono factors porn-star ke career mein important hai.
.
Honestly speaking, maine kabhi itna pehle kabhi nahi socha tha..
Scene-khatm honey ke baad usey maine apna ek kissa bataya tha,
ke muje ek ladke ka call aaya tha, ek baar..
woh mera fan tha..aur mujse chudwaana chahta tha, apne ghar par.
Uskey parents nahi thhe ghar par, kuchh dino ke liye,
toh woh unki absence ka faaida uthana chah rha tha..
Ladka under-age ka tha..
magar kaafi masculine aur sexy tha..
dekhne par muje laga, ke uske saath sex karne mein koi harz nahi..
Maine uus ladke ko masti se chod dala..
ladka khuub enjoy kiya tha..
.
Maine jab yeh kissa Ishaak ko sunaya tha..
toh woh muje gaaliya dene laga tha,
yeh kehte hue, ke mai ek-number-ka-chutiya hu..
kisi bhi under-age ladke ya ladki ke saath kabhi sex nahi karna chaiye
khaas taur pe, apna ghar chhor ke, kisi aur jagah par..
uskey parents kabhi bhi aa sakte thhe
ya toh fir, yeh ek trap bhi ho sakta tha..
woh ladka ya uska yaar, iis chudaai ki video shooting bhi kar sakte thhe
aur police mein de sakte thhe
ya fir muje blackmail bhi kar sakte thhe..
mere career ki vaat lag sakti thhi
aur jail mein jana padta tha, woh alag.
Kuch paise ki kamaai ke liye, mai ye risk kaise utha sakta hu, iis baat se woh taajjub ho gaya tha..
aur aainda aisa na karne ki, usne muje warning bhi de di.
.
.
Toh aisa hai mera Ishaak
woh kabhi bhi koi illegal kaam nahi karega
aur hardam dusro ka khyaal rakhne wala..
chahe woh uska client, ya uska saath sex-scene karnewala koi anjaan sa actor kyo na ho..
.
kahaan mera Ishaak, aur kahaan woh maadarchod Megnotta..
Ishaak kyo darr jayega uus bhediye ki news suun kar..?
usne na kabhi koi galat kaam kiya hai..
aur na hi aisa gair-kanuuni kaam, kabhi woh karega..
toh definitely yeh to wajah nahi ho sakti
koi dusra hi kaaran hai, ke woh retirement ki baat soch raha hai..
koi dusri wajah, kya ho sakti hai..?
except, ke woh bhi mujse pyaar karne laga hai..
aur mere saath ab settle ho jaana chahta hai..
mai mann hi mann ye soch kar fuula nahi sama rha tha..
mere dil mein khushiyo ki fuljadiya fuutne lagi thi..
.
.
'toh aakhir, tumhare dil mein bhi mera kehna maan hi liya..!' -maine kaha
'haan dost.. tum jab yeh baat par convince kar rahe thhe, ke -iis line mein umar bhar nahi reh sakte, aaj ya kal settle hona hi chaiye, -tab muje lagta tha ke, -nahi abhi aur aagey badhna hai, aur famous hona hai- magar ab lagta hai, kis kaam ki hai yeh naamna, ye khyaati jo izzatbhari zindagi na de sakey.. yeh aisi line hai jisme kabhi retirement hai hi nahi.. log tumko gaand par laat maar kar hataa de, tumhare badan ka ras chuus chuus kar tumhe bekaar bana de, us'se pehle agar shaan se nikal le yaha se, wohi akkalmandi hai. Bas itna ke, tumhare saath aisa koi hona chaiye, jo ke tumhare iis retirement ke baad, tumhe samaj sakey, tumhare saath ho, hardam..warna yeh retired life bhi dojakh bann sakti hai..uus Roman Ragazzi ke jaisa bhi hashar ho sakta hai..'
.
'haan.. woh toh bada hi kamnasib porn-star tha..magar tu itna extreme tak mat socha kar' maine fikr bhari aawaz mein kaha
.
'lekin tha toh woh apni hi line ka na..aur uska kissa bhi koi jyada purana nahi hai..bas feb'12 ki hi baat hai. Aur itne kam samay mein logo ki mentality mein fark toh nahi aaya hoga na? aur uus bande ko dekha hai na..? kitna manly aur strong, kitni zabardast height-body wala macho-man tha woh.. usey dekh kar koi soch bhi sakta hai kya, ke woh suicide kar lega..?'
.
( dosto, iis famous gay porn-star ka kissa bhi kaafi tragic hai..pichle Feb'12 ka yeh kissa, koi jyada purana nahi hai..
jab famous Gay porn-star Roman Ragazzi ne suicide kar li..
usko jisne bhi dekha hai woh kabhi bhi maan nahi sakta,
ke itna strong, bharpur height body wala macho-man aisa karega..
toh just imagine..
kitna metally tortured hua hoga yeh fauladi jism wala banda, ke usko aisa karna pada
yeh banda pehle Israel ka Military Trainer tha,
fir 'Raging Stallion Studio' ki gay-porns mein kaam kiya tha, kuch waqt ke liye.
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Kucch saalo baad, iis baat ko 'New-York Post' naam ke newspaper ne kahise find out kar liya..
aur fir, jab Roman Ragazzi, Israeli Consulate mein chup-chaap sharafat se job kar rha tha,
tab iis newspaper ne uske uski iis past-life ko expose kiya
aur fir, usey Consulate se resignation dene par majboor kiya..
Uske baad yeh former gay porn-star, khud ki personal training and fitness company "Freedom Fitness" shuru kar ke apni life chein se guzarne ki koshish mein tha..
magar duniya ne uuska pichha waha bhi nahi chhora..
aur aakhi uus bechare ko itna humiliate kiya, ke yeh iron man aakhir tuut hi gaya..aur yeh extreme kadam utha liya...apni jaan se khel gaya woh
so sad...)
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'uuski baat chhor, tu apni bata. tuney kisey chuuna hai, apni life ka hamsafar? ' -atmosphere ko jyada gloomy honey se bachane ke liye, maine baat ko main-track par lana chaahi.
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Halaanki mai jaanta tha ke woh kiska naam lega.
Magar ek ajeeb anand hota hai yeh baat apne mehboob ke muh se sun'ne mein.
Jab woh hamey propose karnewala hota hai, tab aisa lagta hai ke ham cloud-9 mein sair kar rahe hai.
Muje darr tha, ke woh kahin abhi ke abhi, muje ring na pehna de..
mere paas toh koi ring thi hi nahi, usey pehnane ke liye..
usne muje waqt hi nahi diya tha..
muje jab yaha usne bulaya toh yehi keh kar ke -woh koi ajeeb embarrasing situation mein fansa hua hai..
surprise dena Ishaak ke daaye haath ka khel rha hai.. always..
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'hai ek, jiske saath mai family bana kar settle hona chahta hu..waise family toh bachcho ke bina bann hi nahi sakti..
toh soch rha hu baad mein..matlab ke near future mein hi, ek do bachchey adopt kar lenge..'
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mai jaanta tha ke gay couple ko bachche adopt karne mein muskil toh kaafi hoti hai..
government kaafi jaanch-padtaal ke baad hi permission deti hai..
magar khair.. woh bhi ho jayega..i'm sure
waise, muje bhi bachche badey pyaare lagte hai
unki presence se hi toh ghar, ek ghar lagta hai..
kitni liveliness, kitni chehal pehal aa jaati hai mahoul mein..
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'kya soch rhe ho..? dekhna chahoge usey..?' -Ishaak ne muskuraate hue puchha..
at last, uskey handsome face par muskurahat aa hi gayi..
kitna khubsurat lagta hai, jab woh muskurata hai tab..
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'sure..'maine kaha.
'yeah?.. toh chalo room mein..' -mera haath pakad ke woh muje andar le jane laga
mai jaanta tha, ke woh muje room mein le jaa kar ek mirror ke saamne khada kar dega
aur kahega -dekh lo, mere jivan-saathi ko.
mann hi mann muskurate hue, mai uske pichhe piche varandah se room ke andar gaya..
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fir woh mera haath chhor kar aur bhi aage gaya,
dressing table ke drawer se kuch nikala
shayad hand-mirror tha..
aur usey haath mein liye meri taraf aaya..
mai wahin khada rehkar usey nihaarte raha..
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mirror dikha kar woh muje surprise dena chahta tha..
ab, mai toh pehle se hi uske surprise se waaqif hu..
magar muje uska dil nahi todna chahiye
kisi ko surprise dene ki kuch aur hi khushi hoti hai..
muje uski khushi ko todna nahi hai..
mai aise hi pretend karunga ke..
'wow, u mean it.. ? i can't beleive it.. ' -ya aisa kuchh
mai uske chehre par, woh khushi dekhna chahta hu, jo muje surprise kar ke uusey milegi
arey sirf yeh hi nahi..mai to usey duniya ki har khushi dena chahta hu.
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maine muskurate hue woh hand mirror uskey haatho se liya..
aur andar jaanka..
andar meri reflection ubhar aayi..aur mere chehre par muskurahat bhi..
maine uskey saamne dekha..
woh mere chehre ki muskurahat ko padh rha tha..
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magar..
magar.. mere honth kyo sikudne lagey hai..?
muskurahat mere chehre se gaayab kyo ho rahi hai..?
muje abhi khayal aaya hai ke, woh mirror nahi tha
woh toh sirf kaanch tha..
kaanch mein meri halki si reflection ke pichhey, ek tasveer bhi thi..
yes, woh to ek photo-frame thi..shishe se madhi hui..
usme foto tha..
meri himmat naihi hui, uss photo mein jo tha usko pehchan'ne ki
photo mein jo tha..?
nahi, thi..
yes, woh kisi lady ki photo thi..
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maine fir ek udti hui nazar daali uus lady ko dekhne ki
mera dil dhadakna bhuul raha tha..
ya.. kaffi zor se dhadak raha tha..
samj mein nahi aa rha tha..
muje kuchh chakkar se aa rhe hai..kya ho rha hai muje?
i'm sinking..
muje apne aap ko samhaal lena chaiye..
iis ke pehle ke mai gir jaau, muje apna balance apna sahara dhuund lena chaiye..
baaju mein padey table ka sahara le kar main khada ho gaya
uus photo-frame ko uus par samhaal kar rakh diya..
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'kya hua..? u ok..?' ishaak ne muje puchha
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'yeah..quite ok..'
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'no, u look to be quite shocked..' -usne muskurate hue kaha -"tum ko lagta hoga, ke mai Sania Brandon ko kaise jaanta hu, usey kaha mila.. hollywood ki iis film actress ke, mai itne karib kab aur kaise aa gya ke ab ham shaadi karne ko bhi taiyaar ho gaye.'
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'tum toh pehle se hi chuupe rustam ho dude..always tum muje surprise dene se nahi chukte'
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'hey.. isi mein toh maza hai'
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'lekin yaar, tum gay hokar ek ladki se..?'
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'yaar..woh ladki nahi, aurat hai..mujse kaafi badi hai woh umar main..aur gay toh mai hu, but i am bisexual..tum toh jaante ho maine bi-sexual aur hetro-sexual porns bhi kiye hue hai..kai ek aurato ke saath..sirf aurato ke saath ladkiyo ke saath nahi..you might be knowing I am into older woman. muje bharey bharey badan waali, badey badey boobs waali umar-daraaz auratein hi sexy lagti hai.. and u see Saniya is so sexy, yaar. And so loving lady' -Ishaak ne woh photo uthakar mere haath mein dete hue kaha..
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maine ek nazar fir daali uus picture par..jaani pehchani surat thi..
ab holliwood ki film actress hai, toh face toh jana pehchana hi lagega..
waise muje filmo ka koi khaas shauk nahi hai.. par fir bhi kahin na kahin, kabhi na kabhi, shayad dekha hi hoga iis Sania Brandon ko.
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par muje koi interest nahi tha usmein..na pehle, aur na abhi..
muje toh bas, abhi nikalna hai yahaa se..
muje jaana hai yahaan se,
muje rona hai fuut fuut ke..
mujey agar kuch chahiye to bas ek aisa kandha jisme muh chhupa kar mai ro saku
mujye chaiye 2 aisi bahein jo muje samhaal sakey,
mere pichhey meri peeth par apne haath pasaar kar muje tasalli de sakey
yeh sab cheez muje Ishaak se mil sakti hai
magar ab uski aur se muje koi ummid nahi bachi..
toh fir..
oh my god..
Ishaak, muje jaane do..dost.
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'chal ab isi baat par ek ek beer aur ho jaaye'
'nahi dost, i'll have to leave now..
'arey baith na..'
sorry yaar.. tumhari emergency to khatm ho chuuki hai na..ab muje apna khyal lene de, fir baithenge kabhi fursat mein'
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keh kar mai nikal liya waha se..
magar kahaan jaau..?
muje jyada sochne ki jarurat hi nahi padi..
Ishaak se maayusi paane ke baad, ab agar muje kuch sukuun mil sakta hai toh..
woh hai Pedro ke paas.
aur chal diya, Pedro ke ghar..
jahaan se muje ek aur shock milne waali tha....... (contd..)
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