.
Mere fon ki ring bajti rahi.
aakhir maine 'hello" kaha.
saamne Ishaak tha.
Iis country ka sabse khubsurat mard, (at least meri nazro mein to hai) apni maadak aawaz mein bola -
" I need your help, oh fuck man,.I need your help."
.
Aur muje laga ke woh fir se..
drugs ki wajah se kisi mushkil me hoga.
Magar aisi koi baat nahi thi.
Usne sirf ek minit ke liye hi baat ki
aur kaha ke muje jana hoga..uske paas... abhi.
Usey koi weird problem thi.
koi serious.. logistical problem..
.
yaar, woh kabse aise fancy words istemaal karnne laga...?
saala, Montana ke jungalo ka, ek sutaar,
kahaan se sikh laaya itna litrature..?
.
Wait wait..,
shayad 'logistical' kehne se, uska matlab, logistical nahi hoga.
kyu ke
muje yaad aa raha hai..
kai ek baar, woh galat words ka istemaal karta hai.
jaise ke..
jab usney kaha tha ke -ham 'temporarily' juda ho jaate hai,
uus waqt uska kehne ka matlab tha -'permanently'
.
Mai apni car mein baitha
aur speed-drive karke, uske ghar ka 170 miles ka distance mai chahta tha ke, sirf 3 ghante mein cover kar lu.
Raaste mein to aisi hi ummid thi, ke koi handsome traffic police,
jo ke muje, ek jaane maane porn-star ko pehchaan jaaye,
woh muje pakad le, over-speeding ke liye.
Aisa hua hai pehle..
iis tharki shahar mein aisa pehle 3 baar mere saath hua hai.
.
Khair, muje lagta hai ke uniform wale police, military man, navy officer etc. yeh sab mere fantasy-men hai.
Shayad iisi liye hi, mai Ishaak se love karta hu.
Ishaak ek policewala hai -mera matlab hai- policewala tha.
Worland ke ek toilet mein, ghutno tak utri hui apni pant ke saath jab woh pakda gaya,
uske pehle woh ek police-wala tha.
.
Uske baad usney porn-industry mein apna career banana chaaha.
9 inch ke fauladi lund wale ek mard ke liye, yeh ek smart decision tha..
muj me chhipa hua homophobia...
mera voilence ki aur ka lagaav...
yehi sab wajah hogi, ke mai police-waalo ki aur attract hota hu.
.
Shayad ye sab, uun faaltu TV show ka hi kamaal hoga,
jisme achcha aadmi ka matlab hota hai, ek handsome police-inspector.
.
Magar abhi kahaan hai, woh sab ?
Jab jarurat hai, tab ek bhi toh nahi hai yahaan.
purey raaste mein, maine speed-limit se upar jaa kar drive kiya
magar ek bhi police-saairen ki aawaaz nahi aayi..
shiit...
.
ek khaas umar, 19 se lekar 22 saal tak,
aapki zindagi ke woh sabse lambe 3 saal,
jab aap ko samay ka koi khayal hi nahi rehta,
aur lund hamesha kadak hi rehta hai,
uss period mein,
sab mard, apni apni tarah se aap ko attract karte hai..
fir uske baad, wohi sab ek 'pain-in-the-ass' jaise bann kar reh jaate hai..
Fir Aap ke Clients badalne lagte hai, aur uske saath...aap bhi.
18 se 22 tak sab bandey aapko badey-buzurg, I mean, 'uncle' type lagte hai,
jo ke aap ko hug karna chahte hai,
aapko chocolate, cowboy-boots, fancy underwears etc. kharid kar dena chahte hai.
.
Uske baad jaise aap badey honey lagte ho
toh woh sab ki..aapke pasandida mardo ki umar kam honey lagti hai.
kahiin kidhar 26 se 30 tak ki aap ki umar mein,
aap ko sab umar ke mard, client ke taur par milte hai.
.
Aur uske baad, mera matlab hai..jab aap 30plus ke ho gaye ho tab
sirf woh bachchey hi aapki aur nazar daalte hai..jo ke kisi daddy ki talash mein hai..
aise daddy, jo yahaan ki duniya ke taur tarike, unhey dikha sakey..
unko sikha sakey.
Uus waqt..uus umar mein, aap ko ehsaas hota hai,
ke aap ko chhor dena chahiye thi yahaan ki dunia..bahut pehle..
Kyo ke bahut shelfish hai yeh porn-world..
.
waise glamour world bhi koi kam to nahi hai..
Brazil ke uus naujawan actor Pedro ka hi example le lo..
.
jis aurat ko woh india se wahaan Brazil le gaya..
usne uuske saath kya kiya..?
Woh tab tak his uuske saath rahi, jab tak ke uska maqsad nahi pura ho jaata..
uska maqsad tha, citizenship haansil karna..
uske liye usne Pedro se shaadi tak kar li..
Aur aise Pedro ko bana diya mera step-father..
Aisa sautela baap jo sagi maa se bhi jyada pyaar karta tha muje..
(by the way, usme jismaani pyaar bhi included tha)
.
Aur jab usey citizenship mil gayi..
toh ek pal bhi, usey apne bete ka khyaal nahi aaya, jab uusey wo ek anjaan mard ke sahaare chhor kar chali gayi, fir apni career ki andhi daud mein..
.
Toh aisi shelfish duniya mein, agar Ishaak thodi si bewafaai karta hai mere saath, toh muje bura toh nahi lagana chahiye na...
Isiliye toh mai bhaagta hua yahaa aa gaya hu uske ghar..uske ek fon-call par.
.
Uske ghar ki top floor par sab lights on thi..
aur music bhi chal raha tha.
Ishaak achchi life style jeeta hai,
magar bina kisi matlab ke...
.
Uske ghar me LED-HD TV hai
jo woh kabhi nahi dekhta.
Uuske paas latest model ka lawn mower hai
jisey operate karna tak, usey nahi aata.
Woh har tarah se insured hai..
uski body kar har part, aur ghar ka har hissa,
everything is insured..
.
Itne mehenge iis shehar mein..
jahaan kabar tak ki jagah bhi kharidni padti hai, paise dekar..
Amir aur garib dono ke jahaan alag alag kabrastaan hai,
middle-class log toh afford bhi na kar sakey waise amiro ke kabrastaan mein..
usne ek plot le rakhha hai, abhi se hi.
apni maa ki kabr ke bilkul paas mein..
woh maa,
jo ovary-cancer se marr gayi thi, jab woh sirf 12saal ka tha..
.
Ishaak ke baare mein, mai kitna kuchh jaanta hu.
Balki sab kucch jaanta hu, uske baare mein.
aur kyo nahi..usey chaahta jo hu mai..kaafi arse se
.
Uske mardana jism aur boyish looks ki wajah se,
usne iis porn-industry me bahut paise banaaye hai.
.
Aaj ke digital yuug mein..
kuch toh porn-staar hotey hai
aur baak sab porn-jism hotey hai..
ab jo jism hote hai..woh ek shoot ke 100 dollers kama lete hai..
Aur jo star hai woh toh car, house, bunglows tak, khareed sakte hai..
.
magar apni moives ke jariye nahi..
uun amir business-men ki meeting ke thru,
big shots ke saath week-ends ke thru,
mafia leaders se milti 5000 dollers ki tip ke thru.
.
Ab Florida ke woh twin (judua-bhai) porn-stars ka hi example le lo
Unn dono bhaio ko invite kar ke, London se Brussels tak le jaaya gaya thha,
aur fir dono ko 10-10 hazaar pounds diye gaye thhe,
sirf ek dusre ke lund chusne ke liye..
ek live show perform karne ke liye..
jisey woh sab sab big-shots, badey chaav se nihaarte rahe.
.
Aur Belami Studio ka woh naya naya porn star..kya naam uska..
chhoro yaad nahi aa rha..
jo bhi ho woh..
woh banda Los Angeles se Helsinki tak ja kar,
Nokia ke ek senior manager ke saath, ek mahina raha tha,
roz ke 1000 euros ka charge lekar.
.
Ab, Foreign Exchange ke Rates ko dekhe bina hi, mai calculate kar sakta hu,
ke yeh utni badi amount hai, jo mai kabhi apni 4 trips mein bhi nahi kama paya hu.
aur na hi Ishaak kama paaya hoga...
.
iis ki ek wajah hai..
Ham dono iis line mein. ek alag hi yuug mein enter hue thhe,
Jab ham aaye thhe yahaan..
tab ham unique thhe.
.
Aajkal to har ek star, aasani se yaad reh jaaye aisa naam lagakar, x-tube par moujud hai.
Aur 300 dollers per hour, ki fees lekar, yaha L.A. se Miami tak, sirf lund chusne ke liye, plane me uudte hai.
dost..unko parwadta hai yeh sab,
they can afford...
kamaai hai utni, uun kamino ki.
Star jo hai woh, sirf jism nahi.
.
Apni car ka darwaza maine zor se bandh kiya,
taki Ishaak ko meri arrival ka pata chale.
Aur dusre kamre mein lights on hui.
Darwaza apne aap slide hua,
aur muje bhagna pada,
taaki time par, darwaaza bandh ho jaaye us'se pehle mai usey paar kar saku.
Andar gaya aur Ishaak ke naam ki aawaaz lagaai.
Jab maine usey dekha to mera dil, apni ek dhadkan chuk gaya.
.
Wo sidiyo par khada tha, bas ek leather ki pant pehne huey.
Uska upari badan pasiney se chamak raha tha.
Mera Ishaak..
mera chhupa hua pyaar..
woh mard, jisey mai kabhi pa nahi sakunga.
woh iisliye, kyu ke woh bhi utna hi top
aur 'kisi-ki-lenewala' hai, jitna ke mai hu..
isiliye woh kabhi bhi apne aapko, muje submit nahi karega.
.
my hard luck... (contd)
.
=======================================
No comments:
Post a Comment